goes on

so , it’s the very end of the month again =)
take a deep breathe , take a new step .
Life’s goes on .

I always wished that September wouldn’t comes this fast .
I somehow wished life can be so hmm u name it .
free ? and somewhat spontaneous ?
anything
its just so lively as we can smell the youth
eventho we r not moving on , time does .
Its really time to put down what we used to be and be responsible for the future ,
soooon
Life’s goes on .

too , never believe when forever is said .
Even for a moment , the pain it brings still hurts when it breaks .
i understand the term letting go and giving up .
that’s not what matters .
what matter is , once again ,
it proves me , forever never exist .
nonetheless,
Life’s goes on .

=)



suddenly , this song pop up from memories .
cheers up !
^^

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreamin' of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Da da da'd da da
Da da da'd da da
Da da da'd da da da da

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get on board a fast train
Travel on a jetplane, far away
And breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won't forget all the ones that I love
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me
But, gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye, gotta
Take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Breakaway
Breakaway...

Kelly Clarkson – Breakaway

afterall .

feel like talking much todayy . don’t really know why , maybe its holiday ?
anyways , sharing is caring =) so , just listen =)

i think my pms started too soon this month , but im really stress of everything , or nearly everything .

‘ve been a big spender recently and im seriously worried that imma ‘ve not enough fund for the KL trip . maybe , just enough . but u know ~ comparing to Bruneii , KL is much like a shopping HEAVEN . without enough $$ , meaning no shopping . it’s a super sad thing .
At this time , im thinking . why am i not rich family kids ?

Days in office suck to the core . im bored and doing nothing most of the time . my phone was always in my hand . chatting , fb , twitter , blogreading and blablashitt . i always fished in the early morning , and i guess my boss already knew about it . i couldn’t pay enough attention on the work assigned to me , yes i finished it in time just ~ u know , delay delay delay until the last minute . when i get bored , i always slacking around fb like almost every 10mins although i ‘ve told myself a billion times there s nth to see .

Open web – bookmark – facebook – view home page – nth – exit . after *5-10mins* repeat again . =s

Say , if im the boss , i’d have probably sack ‘ this ‘ worker no matter how high efficiency she was . sometimes u really get upset much when u tried to impressed your boss by doing works nice and fast but they never appreciated it .

I’ve got a job opportunity , i guess . a better salary which is better for my future if i really wanted to study . but , i don’t think i can simply just give 1month notice and leave like that . im not saying im kind but think of it . if i leave here , how are they going to get compatible with their works ? im doing like nearly 90% of the works , how m i gonna pass the job to someone else in a month ? it sounds like a little irresponsible but the whole world is telling me : who cares ? neither you care if none is appreciating .

Who doesn’t get fed up when u work for almost 3years with no increment ?

AND , i really she bu de the to quit the job here . too relaxing and the 3.30 ! its like , a loadssssssssss moreee than others =s i’ve got moreeee time to slack ~ sleep ~ daydreaming ~ and EXERCISES ! aiya , sometimes i just think maybe i should just stop complaining and just stay ! live my life enjoy and relax with no challenge . wait for a rich guy drops from the sky marry him and be a Shao Nai Nai . dreaming much ? lols .

Think of my family future makes me stress , my mum’s just a typical housewife who has not working since the age of 20+ . IF , im not going to study , how am i gonna support my family future ? when my dad retires ? to buy a house for them ? to let them enjoy and take good care of them ? like how ? they always adore my bro much but he s just such a ermm , u know ~ spoilt , not clever type , immature , a form 4 student who doesn’t even wash his own plate and iron his own uniform . 茶来伸手，饭来张口..
aiks .

what moree if i go for a course . what course shud i take ? CAT ‘d be the best choice bcz……hmm girls = accountant ? seriously i don’t think im interested in accounts and too i don’t know whether if im capable to study account . i’ve failed it 5years straight in highschool =s i didn study for it yea , so ? i cannot guarantee also whether IF i can pass even IF i study for it ?
lols .
thinking of going KL , since its much cheaper there . but , living costs and expenses ? and , the life there + my personality ? lols , i’ve already got a picture of me shaking my ass off saying Eyyy Ohhh ~ !
ahems .
back to topic .
i told my mum about my plan few days ago . roughly about im going blabla , if cheap blabla , den i might need them support me a little blabla . and tadaaaa , she continued with her eyes on tv without any expression nor a single word just like she never knows im talking to her .
great ~ !
so what now ?

Many has asked me to study what im interested with if i really going to . but , as a Gemini , can say apa apa i pun ada hengchu LOLS . to choose one , interior design maybe ?

I like art , but i don’t think im creative enough . design is not like account or computing or business or whatever . those for me are like , even u’re not talented , just put more effort and study study study like no theres no tmr . as long as u put more hard work on it.

But design ? i don’t really know how it goes but what if one day they asking for creative and inspire doesn’t come to you ? and , brunei don have this special course for interior design ? ada ~ technical school speaking that only Yellow and Red IC has the chance to be chosen .

Life’s been really stress as we peeps grow up each day . responsibility comes to you no matter what . although me myself , i , always complaint that my parents don’t pay enough attention on me or don’t care me like they did to my sister and brother .

Still , seeing my dad comes home late with the tiring face makes me grief , thinking he wouldn have to so xin ku if im capable enough . My mum married to my dad when she was still at my age . she had actually wasted her youth to take care of we siblings . and yet we ‘re not still not able to full sponsor her even on a simple vacation ?

If only Neverland does exist .

Lols . suddenly feel whats with the emotional .
PMS , u just fucked me up .
Anyways , hope everything goes smooth .

Be strong peeps =)
xoxo .

hey baby , im here =)

Hi ! the title was totally a random so just ignore it HAHA .
After daydreaming and lepak around FB , Twitter and whatever blabla stuff the whole morning .
I seriously think i should stop this act .
=(
Like , spend more time on blogging jot down every single thought which i’d like to kept in mind , but NOT only when emo . i think my readers get emo too sometimes . DU BU QI ho ~
Naonianimama ~ keep emo kamjoi !Okay fine that’s a little rude , aiya ~ sui bian =D

So hmmmmmm .
The end .

HAHA WTF ! kidding ~

So ~
Having great days recently .
It has been awhile i didn have breakfast with them ^^ maybe lunch , maybe brunch , just so not breakfast .
Lallala ~ breakfast on Sunday morning just so lively ~
It’d be perfect if the foods were dimsumsssss which i’ve been craving for =D awww ~ *drooling*

Well ~ went badminton yesyesterday with Lai’s , KoKo’s and Kelv’s . LKK ?
Guess what ! i bought a new racket =D =D =D
Cost me $50 after discount but Koko helps me pay half of it .
Alright , its SI BEH malu but im broke atm .
So~ hou lian pi nia la ! =$

Next time ba next time , when i zuan da qian ! =D

went bball and badminton as well yesterday .
Sweat lots but useless , shudn be eating after sport BUT Sin U Me’s Ban Mian is just way too attractive , i couldn resist hoho ~
nyum nyum ~

muscle s aching much now . hand hang leg leg ~ tight dao can die .
SHUD cont to sport but .. tiring lar ~
climb stair also wan die wan die edii =s
noobiee noob ~

hey weight , why u keep increasing =(
Stop eating !!
Oh c’mon ! don’t lost ur inspiration ~
BIKINI !!!!!!!!!!


lala ~ uulala ~

Gemini

双子座
双子孤傲是因为他们自信，双子善变是因为世界在改变，双子没有耐性是因为他们发现了不值得，双子冷漠是因为他们害怕被伤害，双子花心是因为他们没有找到真爱，双子不在乎是因为你没有看到他们的敏感。

- 相信善变与没耐心是天生的。偶尔的冷漠，假装不在乎只是想保护自己。真爱，相信我找到了=）

笑
双子们的笑永远都是最单纯的，无论什么时候你都会看到一直都在笑的双子，因为他们一直都只想把自己的快乐带给别人，却只把悲伤留给自己，你没有看到过双子的眼泪是因为他从来不会在被人面前哭，当你看到双子的眼泪的时候，那么说明你是真的把他们的真心夺走了，因为双子真的很需要一份值得的依靠，他会每时每刻的在乎你的一切，他们很敏感的，会跟着你的快乐而快乐，跟着你的忧愁而忧愁，跟着你的改变而改变，但在你面前他们从来都是快乐的。

- 可能曾经吧？现在会较想与人分享悲伤。或许，真的想要知道到底还有谁，会把耳朵与肩膀借给我，关心我。当得不到想要的结果，除了假装快乐，还能够做什么？

爱
一提到双子的爱，一般人肯定都会说： 双子座的人最花心。可是是真的是这样吗？双子和异性的关系好只是因为他们非同一般的亲和力，而双子的真心只有一个，当他找到的时候，他就会付出自己的一切让对方得到幸福，他要的不是他自己能和对方在一起，他要的是对方的幸福，和双子在一起会感到很随和，因为他会包容你的一切，你的一切优点和缺点，和双子在一起绝对不会觉得被锁住，你只要做自己就好，因为双子喜欢的就是真实的你，做作的人根本不会得到双子的心。

-曾经，我的控制欲太强。可能到现在还是。但，相信我 =) 有人说，让你自然的爱我，不要用我的方式逼你爱我。这样对大家都好，我们都会很幸福 ^^


坚强
有人说双子很坚强，什么都不在乎，是阿，表面的双子确实很坚强，但是内心他们比任何人都脆弱，也许这也是风向 > > 星座的人的一个特性，决不会让别人看到自己脆弱的一面，因为他们都是一个有一双别人看不见翅膀的天使，天生就会给别人带来快乐，双子们的眼泪是透明的，别人看不见，可是自己却能看
得很清楚这样的透明的泪给自己开来双倍的痛。

-或许偶尔我会常说管他的，其实也并不然。有时也只是不想让人知道自己很在乎，因为我相信有些人越知道你在乎他，他反而越看你没有。这种感觉并不好受 =( 强颜欢笑，是唯一的选择。说出来，并没有比较好。因为人总是会有百分百的理由替自己强辩，没有人会喜欢被指责。只能默默的假装看不见，听不到。


人际
双子们的人缘很好，因为他们懂得你什么时候需要什么样的帮助，而且双子们会根据不同的人有不同的交往方式，双子很容易相信别人，所以经常会被欺骗，可是在欺骗后他们仍然会轻轻的笑笑然后说：没关系的，他骗我肯定会有原因。双子从来不会知道后悔是什么，因为他们时时刻刻都在为别人想，总会设身处地，可是这样别人根本就不知道，就是因为他帮助别人太多了，所以在他需要帮助的时候却总是孤立无援，然后继续的笑着，笑着找到一个角落，留下那颗透明的泪。

-也还好吧？因为太善变，对什么都有一定的好奇心。东学点西学点，自然能容易找话题。人性是鸡婆的，太渴望别人的关心，就会在别人‘关心’你时不知不觉把心事说出来，以为付出真心就会得到相同的回报。但往往，得到的还是对方的左顾而言他。久而久之，也只能苦笑着把眼泪往肚里吞。想着只少，他/她还会对着你笑 =)


朋友
当双子的朋友真的很幸福哦！因为当你遇到什么困难时，他会比你更着急，甚至会失去自己宝贵的东西也会帮助你，他会带给你快乐帮你分担忧愁，可是你却看不到他的孤独和无助，当双子看到你不高兴的时候，无论这时他有多么的郁闷，他也会立刻露出最真实的笑容来帮助你。

-因为他们无条件的对你们好，真的只是想要得到同等的对待。就算失败再失败，他还是会站起来，告诉你：我还在不用怕。他们想要的，无非只是一颗真心，一个真的会挺他，真心对他好的朋友。不是他们不要分享悲伤，只是怕这份悲伤会让人误会，把距离越拉越远。

执着
说双子善变，那只是片面之词，对于双子真正喜欢的东西，它是会执着的让人害怕的，就是因为内心太像小孩子太单纯，所以对于他们真正喜欢的东西，他们是根本就不知道放弃是什么的，除非是他们自己发现这个东西不值得，否则他们是绝对不会放弃的，只要是他们肯定的，他们就会有超出别人很多的坚持和执著。

-东西，应该还好。我身边的朋友，认识了很多年的你们，才是我最大的执著 =)


自尊
双子的自尊很重要，对于他们最重要的恐怕就是这个了，他们懂得原谅，无数次的去试着原谅，就算别人让自己千疮百孔，他们也会无条件的有自己的宽容，有自己的原则和原谅，就是因为他们的自尊，他们的自尊心让他们相信这个世界永远都是最美的，因为他们的自尊不允许自己放弃这个世界。

-因为我放弃，我就输了。曾经我放弃过，感觉~　不是很好！反而认真的去争取，努力，还比较好过。应该不会废到说结果不重要，不重要，就不会努力吧?


分享
在双子的世界里没有分享，只有是你的或者是我的，他们不会把一样东西去和别人分享，因为他们认为这样对那样东西是不公平的，因为他在乎每一个人每一样东西的感觉，只要他认为这件东西是自己可以割舍的，他绝对会无条件的退出，去成全别人，对于欺骗过他们的恋人，他会选择原谅，但绝对不会再和他们在一起，因为他懂得这样不值得。

- ...

双子座的人真的很可爱，真的很需要人的保护和安慰，他们不会放弃世界，却会放弃自己，去成全别人，他们懂得原谅和理解，无论这一秒他有多讨厌一个人，下一秒看到那个人脆弱的一面，他还是会去无条件地帮助他，真的很傻吧？但是傻的好可爱，好让人心疼，痛过以后，他们依然会笑着面对以后未知的路，继续原谅，继续理解，继续快乐，继续的傻着，改变双子真的很难吧？因为他们的心都是金刚石作的，但不是说他们无情，他们的执着只是针对自己的，那么孤傲的一个人，也只是针对自己，因为他们不知道怎么表达自己的内心，所以他们选择了沉默。

-就算我在这时大骂特骂，下一秒如果你跑来关心我，应该就算了吧？反而有时还会觉得自己想太多，虽然我真的是！适当的沉默是必须的，沉默不代表我可以继续的悲观下去。看开点，人也会开心点 ^^

加油吧！

Dynamite

I came to dance, dance, dance, dance
I hit the floor
'Cause that's my, plans, plans, plans, plans
I'm wearing all my favorite
Brands, brands, brands, brands
Give me space for both my hands, hands, hands, hands
Ye, ye
Cause it goes on and on and on
And it goes on and on and on

Yeah!

I throw my hands up in the air sometimes
Saying AYO!
Gotta let go!
I wanna celebrate and live my life
Saying AYO!
Baby, let's go!

'Cause we gon' rock this club
We gon' go all night
We gon' light it up
Like it's dynamite!
'Cause I told you once
Now I told you twice
We gon' light it up
Like it's dynamite!

I came to move, move, move, move
Get out the way me and my crew, crew, crew, crew
I'm in the club so I'm gonna do, do, do, do
Just what the fuck, came here to do, do, do, do

Ye, ye

Cause it goes on and on and on
And it goes on and on and on

Yeah!

I throw my hands up in the air sometimes
Saying AYO!
Gotta let go!
I wanna celebrate and live my life
Saying AYO!
Baby, let's go!

'Cause we gon' rock this club
We gon' go all night
We gon' light it up
Like it's dynamite!
'Cause I told you once
Now I told you twice
We gon' light it up
Like it's dynamite!

I'm gonna take it all like,
I'm gonna be the last one standing,
I'm alone and all I
I'm gonna be the last one landing
'Cause I, I, I Believe it
And I, I, I
I just want it all, I just want it all
I'm gonna put my hands in the air
Hands in the air
Put your hands in the air

I throw my hands up in the air sometimes
Saying AYO!
Gotta let go!
I wanna celebrate and live my life
Saying AYO!
Baby, let's go!

'Cause we gon' rock this club
We gon' go all night
We gon' light it up
Like it's dynamite!
'Cause I told you once
Now I told you twice
We gon' light it up
Like it's dynamite!

Taio Cruz - Dynamite

* madly in love !

dayss .

Lady boss was away for few days .
ITS SUPER AWESOME !

im so so so freeeeee yet busyy !

've been busy every morning sampai at least 10am ! or even 11ish ~ which is so so great for me .
i love the feeling being busy , after lunch(nap) break then start msn - ing while doing some paperworks .
stress freee !

idk , everything was just so relax without her around . no , shes a very nice boss ! just that , i;ve got more things to do that fill up my morning and i wont always do 'fishing' in the early morning .
maybe , i really should make a proposal .

dear lady boss ,
i advice you stay home and be a goodhousewife and i will take over your works . don worry , i can do it better than you did . if you dont mind , salary + 99 i also dont mind one la HOHO ~

okay fine , im just dreaming .
she will be back , NEXT MONDAY .
thats fast . saddest !

need and want .

i want chocolate , i need food .

i remembered our first commerce class was about needs and wants .

A need is something u must have , something that must not to do without .

A want is something u would like to have , its not a must , its more like a fullfilling of wishes .

okays above are simple craps .

so..

am i your need , or want ?

sometimes i feel you dont need me , you just want me =)