thats it

i do like feel like jot down everything that meant something .
but im lazy , and somemore speechless .
its like u needa think twice to post somethings incase .... u know ~ who knows its another not acceptable n become a happening topic
there are always lots of issues running thru my head that sometimes it has almost got me insane .
i dont know .
i wanted to share but i dont like to be judge , behind my back .
n i dont know too if im strong enough to face the hmmm.. 'frenly advice' neither .
u know he has changed a lot . so much ironic and full of lies than before . thats definitely not him , not the one im used to be with .
maybe its caused by me but yeaaa..things just wont work .
when i try to talk , all he does s depreciating himself . i dont know , he s trying to let me know something . to let me ... not to talk about him ? when u got that something in you , its just gonna piss u off .
he just cant understand what im talking about , that makes me real fed up .
he oftenly stall off me when we chat and when i ask him dont do that , he will asked something like .. i go toilet got wrong ? .. hello ? ohmy , its just so wrong with our communication
eventually , when he s trying to talk with me , i chose to keep quite cz i know he wont get the point forever . somemore he quite suang with it that i kept quite so he goes more than over , and THAT , lead to something big .
and i started to hesitate shud we even continue in this way
what 'd u do if u and your partner 've no mutual way to communicate .
to hold on a relation that you already doubted if its would even last , its pathetic .
u know its gonna end sooner or later yet u greedily wanted it love n blindly hold on until the one last second , its tragic .
miracle just wont happen , stop expecting n eventually u stop disappointing
well well , i hope its just pms . hope everything s gonna be fine . still hoping yea ?