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This month is different from others .
Shits happened .


as I cannot stand the chaos in the office anymore .
Those aunties are acting like a nuisance kid , more and more over .
Im so stressed looking at them behave this way when the works already brought me enough .


im so tired serving 2 bosses when both of them , each think , i shud take his job as first priority .
well , both side also boss . both side i also have to listen of course .
But , since Eric is the one who hired me shouldn’t i will be doing his work at main concerned ?
Well , no one care shits about that . If i don’t help those malays , here goes the blahs .


i went home at 6 nearly everyday .
If i were to help them in the early morning until noon .
What time should i go home then ? 8pm ? 9pm ? 10pm ?
And you yourself , still 430 . help or not , still 430 . forever 430 .


Simple as that , understand no ?


Quitting the job have been in my mind since weeks ago .
But , yeaa . i just don’t have the ming to just quit like that eng eng at home kiao ka take money from parents .
I zuo bu dao . kiao ka yes , take money .. urms ~
Things have been tough for foreigner nowadays .
Think twice !


Moving on .


I feel like im losing friends i love .
don’t have time to slack in office and contacting them like no tmr now .
plus bitch s still behaving like a bitch , make things hard .
i hate that when im trying to make effort but non appreciating it
and i , will always be the one who rang bu . always be the one who have been ask to kan kai . im unhappy for this . but . non understand . non care .
the chatroom have been so quiet , i don’t know why .
for some reason , everyone chose to reply in personal .
its not like before everyone together ki li kua la non stop eventho its just plenty of craps .
siok no ? i miss that yeaa .


been taught not to care when ppl care less .
i tried , but it seems things don’t turned out how i wish it to be .
i remembered there were some says it takes double times to forget what u have built .
well say . im in deep shit now .


a very best friend s leaving too .
and i know i cant make her stay , i cannot , and i have no right .
as a best friend , i would have choose whats best for her , and support her i think .
if we were that good , it would have mean distance doesn’t meant so much .
but , i know myself . i would have feel insecure once again because i cant reach her .
its just inside me , i cant help
i really love everyone being together like a big happy family .
Tho she is younger yet she s so independent , decisive and brave
Shame on me no ?


Sometimes , i don’t know how girls’ mind can put in so many things .
So little time , so many to fan .
Why make ourselves suffer these much .


Life can be as simple as that . we , who make it complicated .