Party ? No Party ?

We like party . we like , we like party .

Kasianly. No party.
Our hmmm gathering was cancelled.
Lai’s went Temburong and yeaaa, so we didn’t celebrate Koko’s and Danny’s bday.
awww ~
im craving for a party much =(

He left his laptop with me while he was away to Temburong, i thought i ‘ll be dota-ing like no tmr but surprisingly i didn’t. im goodie goodie ^^
but still late sleep la lols.


we went for Shrek 3 yesterday.

So shes beautiful as an orge ? hmmm. oO

Laugh die me xD
It’s a above average cartoon for me :D
Although the 2 IceMountain ( Danny’s + KoKo’s ) sitting beside me were really cool with the poker face but that’s alright , im still laughing like no tmr . ! thumbs up ^^

angry wig ! pkm him, funny die.

So whats next ~ Prince of Persia ! i wanna watch ~~ =DD
But hmmm ~ i tot we shud be saving money ?



xxx



In a blink of an eyes (kua zhang), im turning 21 soon.
21 sounds meaningful to me for don’t know what reason.
I wan partehhh xD !!!
I like to move it move it ~ we like to move it move it ~

Donkey ~ can i borrow your tongue =(
*typical bigbig watery innocent eyes*

LOLS

im bored =(

n im sleepy.
Been sleeping really late again these days.
I stay on bed, i couldn’t fall asleep.
I was doing nothing. But my mind, refused to rest. saddd.
Think too much ?
No ~ i was only thinking “my god, my god, its getting late. I wanna sleep, lets sleep lets sleep……” ==
This s not thinking too much ey ?
aww ~ =((
i missed my laptop.
I missed my nightlife doing nothing enjoy the peace atmosphere whole night chatting, dota-ing, bo liao-ing.
I missed Dota T______________________T

I just cant bear to be alone.
I don’t really know why. I guess i know why but maybe that’s not the particular reason too.
Because sometimes i do enjoy alone ?
Gahh i don’t know.

I just, don’t like . =s

Couple of days before, i’ve a fight with you.know.who because im way too boring.
The boredom brings impatient or im always being impatient either.
I know, i sound rude. I stabbed him by words.
Alright i guess i just want him to pay more attention on me or soothe me or some blabla shitt. I wanted to feel like being care. so yeaaa. wrong way , try not to !

After a few hours later, we talked erm as in msn again. i tried to be patient. I tried to listen.
I did it pretty well =D *pat myself*
Although im not agreed with some of it, but yeaa if in other ppl eyes this s what they see the way you are. You were it.
You cannot blame ppl from misunderstanding you. Plus, they are closed to you.
So, even they think you this way. Its really time to look into the mirror ^^

Im sorry everyone !!!!!!!!!! sometimes i just don’t mean it for what’ve i said.
If, it does hurt. DUUUII BUUUUUU QIIIIII T____________________________T

Oh my, im reaaly bored no =s

Blahhhhhhhh ~

Spend a night at Lai’s house last Saturday ^^

Say, Lai’s koko has quite a few musical instruments.
Piano, violin, and 3 to 4 electric guitars. =D
I think he plays well tho ~ for a beginner, for he never attend any class.
He actually learned all those things just via Youtube.
I remember 1 or 2 years ago i ever asked him to teach me to play the electric guitar =b
The song he taught me was the ‘I Don’t Love You’ by The Chemical Romance. The melody s simply nice.
But then sadly, i forgot how to play edii HAHA =s
It has been years alright =$

Im seriously thinking im a very good kid that willing to learn all source of things =D (beh paiseh)
While waiting for the others, my sharp eyes spotted the lonely piano need my companion and once again, i jio Koko to teach me piano =DD
Hmm ~ he can play few Final Fantasy rhythms, Kingdom Heart and Canon in few months time.
I chose the Canon ofcz, i didn’t really know why. Maybe feel more familiar with the melody since we always play that song when we were in high school. O2JAM ey ! lols it does bring some sweet memories =b

Somehow, i wished that i can buy a piano one day. ^^


Okays ahems, back to topic.

So ~ koko bought a board game few days ago, the Pictionary.
I’ve seen this board game before but i always thought it s for kids that i never know there s an adult version.
It was pretty fun xD
all you need to do s draw draw draw ~
better drawing skill s not a must but the tacit understanding s really important ~
plus the handicap ~ surely gonna laugh die you !

We played stacko as well ~ i believe it ‘d be more fun after drink.
Its weird ~ i didn kena jio drink ~ not even a sip =D
Anything ~ gonna continue this Saturday i guess.

And before that ~ i think i ‘l go buy the Twist ~ hehehehhee.
With better innate flexibility of girls’, i stand a bigger chance eyy ?


tataa ~


P/S: Pictures ~ i’ll try ^^”

emo sia xs

Im gonna start whining again. =s

Anyways. The so called boyfriend is now named Ex =)
Nth much to say.
Its like a win-lose relation.
I lost something, i gained something.
But im not regret for what i lost.
Because of this relation. I finally get clear of which position where im suppose to be. =)
i learned how to be content with one’s situation =p

Its not a really bad things ey ~ ^^
Although it’s a little hurt. I mean erm reeeeally hurt.
However, i can see the maturity is increasing
My brain atleast working =D
It tells me, i cannot blast like before
It tells me,
It could be the end of us.
which helps nothing.
No i don want to, the loves are more than i thought.
I were once thinking its ok, i could’ve just walked away from whom i love.
I would have just started another life.
Obviously,
I really cherish our relation.
Although, he doesn’t seem like he cares anymore.
Perhaps, he never does.

=s

Thinking about past.
All those crazy memories.
Those stupiest things i’ve ever done to get the attention lols.
I think i just way too lack of security.
i was hoping that if they do care, if we do fren, if they do love me.

Maybe,
they will talk about it to me.
Maybe,
they will ask me to stop behaving like that.
Maybe,
I would’ve more cares from’em.

But its too wrong
What i get in return, it’s the hatred and despises.

Haha.

But as a best friend, as an old friend.
Its too over tho.
Its not good when u hear from a stranger about ur bad things.
Trust me, it feels suuuuuuper sucks

Because u know, its spread by ur loved one.

Because u know, he chose to keep silent from you, he chose to act like he doesn’t care.
But in the back, you’re just like a piece of shit to him. A very stink one.
That he can tell someone, a stranger. Told that stranger lots about you. Tell Mr.Stranger that you’re such a disgrace.

Ouchh ~

Actually, its ok if that outsiders knew about it.
It’s the fact that cannot be denied. I did. I flirt. =)
what i mind the most is your act ey.
we’re friend, a good one, used to be =s
what’s your feeling when you telling ?
do you feel a bit guilty ? just a little ?
and after so long i thought u don’t care, somemore because its still consider out of your business
but its not, you mind actually, you’ve got a lot to speak. Just that i didn hear it from you but others.
well, it hurts me. a lots. and what hurts most is. i still love you =s

In fact, everyone makes mistake, im trying to change now.
I know that bad memories are always hard to erase.
But serious, im trying to do something to save ?
Im trying to change.
I really hope that someday, that i’ll have the guts to tell you.

Please,. We’re friend, remember ?