^o)

tell me what are the differences between giving up and moving on .

it confused me .
i tot when u gave up , then you moved on .

how people gonna move on IF they didn’t give it up ?

how people gonna move on IF they never let it goes ?

or maybe insisting the word move on instead of give up makes people sound with more….. dignity ?
perhaps in singlish - die wan face .
is this what we so called human nature ?

in my world , promises vanished when people decided to give up .
they fall , they failed , they moved on with their new life .

in my world , insisting what you insisted meant nothing .
still ,
those blablashitt vanished .

yet ,
its not like what had been said .

so ,
what you think ?

move on without giving up
sounds more like a joke .
because i can see no blablashitt here with me no moree .

izit there s only 1 type of relation left ? i tot things could be better than now .
IF you’re right , IF u insisted only 1choice you made , where have you been ?

elapsed

and every step we took we’ve grown
look how fast the time has flown

nice lyric isnt it =)

from Charice - Pyramid

just when i stucked my head in , this lyrics remind me

i shoudnt

altho i still care a little , i still mind a little , i still wish it could be better a little

a little sad , a little hope

its all gonna have to be thrown away .

we cant changed anything that had happened .

work for a better future is the best solution isnt it ?

at least , try =)

have to say , at least day by day , i saw the maturity grows inside me

shame on you

goes on

so , it’s the very end of the month again =)
take a deep breathe , take a new step .
Life’s goes on .

I always wished that September wouldn’t comes this fast .
I somehow wished life can be so hmm u name it .
free ? and somewhat spontaneous ?
anything
its just so lively as we can smell the youth
eventho we r not moving on , time does .
Its really time to put down what we used to be and be responsible for the future ,
soooon
Life’s goes on .

too , never believe when forever is said .
Even for a moment , the pain it brings still hurts when it breaks .
i understand the term letting go and giving up .
that’s not what matters .
what matter is , once again ,
it proves me , forever never exist .
nonetheless,
Life’s goes on .

=)



suddenly , this song pop up from memories .
cheers up !
^^

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreamin' of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Da da da'd da da
Da da da'd da da
Da da da'd da da da da

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get on board a fast train
Travel on a jetplane, far away
And breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won't forget all the ones that I love
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me
But, gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye, gotta
Take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Breakaway
Breakaway...

Kelly Clarkson – Breakaway

afterall .

feel like talking much todayy . don’t really know why , maybe its holiday ?
anyways , sharing is caring =) so , just listen =)

i think my pms started too soon this month , but im really stress of everything , or nearly everything .

‘ve been a big spender recently and im seriously worried that imma ‘ve not enough fund for the KL trip . maybe , just enough . but u know ~ comparing to Bruneii , KL is much like a shopping HEAVEN . without enough $$ , meaning no shopping . it’s a super sad thing .
At this time , im thinking . why am i not rich family kids ?

Days in office suck to the core . im bored and doing nothing most of the time . my phone was always in my hand . chatting , fb , twitter , blogreading and blablashitt . i always fished in the early morning , and i guess my boss already knew about it . i couldn’t pay enough attention on the work assigned to me , yes i finished it in time just ~ u know , delay delay delay until the last minute . when i get bored , i always slacking around fb like almost every 10mins although i ‘ve told myself a billion times there s nth to see .

Open web – bookmark – facebook – view home page – nth – exit . after *5-10mins* repeat again . =s

Say , if im the boss , i’d have probably sack ‘ this ‘ worker no matter how high efficiency she was . sometimes u really get upset much when u tried to impressed your boss by doing works nice and fast but they never appreciated it .

I’ve got a job opportunity , i guess . a better salary which is better for my future if i really wanted to study . but , i don’t think i can simply just give 1month notice and leave like that . im not saying im kind but think of it . if i leave here , how are they going to get compatible with their works ? im doing like nearly 90% of the works , how m i gonna pass the job to someone else in a month ? it sounds like a little irresponsible but the whole world is telling me : who cares ? neither you care if none is appreciating .

Who doesn’t get fed up when u work for almost 3years with no increment ?

AND , i really she bu de the to quit the job here . too relaxing and the 3.30 ! its like , a loadssssssssss moreee than others =s i’ve got moreeee time to slack ~ sleep ~ daydreaming ~ and EXERCISES ! aiya , sometimes i just think maybe i should just stop complaining and just stay ! live my life enjoy and relax with no challenge . wait for a rich guy drops from the sky marry him and be a Shao Nai Nai . dreaming much ? lols .

Think of my family future makes me stress , my mum’s just a typical housewife who has not working since the age of 20+ . IF , im not going to study , how am i gonna support my family future ? when my dad retires ? to buy a house for them ? to let them enjoy and take good care of them ? like how ? they always adore my bro much but he s just such a ermm , u know ~ spoilt , not clever type , immature , a form 4 student who doesn’t even wash his own plate and iron his own uniform . 茶来伸手，饭来张口..
aiks .

what moree if i go for a course . what course shud i take ? CAT ‘d be the best choice bcz……hmm girls = accountant ? seriously i don’t think im interested in accounts and too i don’t know whether if im capable to study account . i’ve failed it 5years straight in highschool =s i didn study for it yea , so ? i cannot guarantee also whether IF i can pass even IF i study for it ?
lols .
thinking of going KL , since its much cheaper there . but , living costs and expenses ? and , the life there + my personality ? lols , i’ve already got a picture of me shaking my ass off saying Eyyy Ohhh ~ !
ahems .
back to topic .
i told my mum about my plan few days ago . roughly about im going blabla , if cheap blabla , den i might need them support me a little blabla . and tadaaaa , she continued with her eyes on tv without any expression nor a single word just like she never knows im talking to her .
great ~ !
so what now ?

Many has asked me to study what im interested with if i really going to . but , as a Gemini , can say apa apa i pun ada hengchu LOLS . to choose one , interior design maybe ?

I like art , but i don’t think im creative enough . design is not like account or computing or business or whatever . those for me are like , even u’re not talented , just put more effort and study study study like no theres no tmr . as long as u put more hard work on it.

But design ? i don’t really know how it goes but what if one day they asking for creative and inspire doesn’t come to you ? and , brunei don have this special course for interior design ? ada ~ technical school speaking that only Yellow and Red IC has the chance to be chosen .

Life’s been really stress as we peeps grow up each day . responsibility comes to you no matter what . although me myself , i , always complaint that my parents don’t pay enough attention on me or don’t care me like they did to my sister and brother .

Still , seeing my dad comes home late with the tiring face makes me grief , thinking he wouldn have to so xin ku if im capable enough . My mum married to my dad when she was still at my age . she had actually wasted her youth to take care of we siblings . and yet we ‘re not still not able to full sponsor her even on a simple vacation ?

If only Neverland does exist .

Lols . suddenly feel whats with the emotional .
PMS , u just fucked me up .
Anyways , hope everything goes smooth .

Be strong peeps =)
xoxo .

Gemini

双子座
双子孤傲是因为他们自信，双子善变是因为世界在改变，双子没有耐性是因为他们发现了不值得，双子冷漠是因为他们害怕被伤害，双子花心是因为他们没有找到真爱，双子不在乎是因为你没有看到他们的敏感。

- 相信善变与没耐心是天生的。偶尔的冷漠，假装不在乎只是想保护自己。真爱，相信我找到了=）

笑
双子们的笑永远都是最单纯的，无论什么时候你都会看到一直都在笑的双子，因为他们一直都只想把自己的快乐带给别人，却只把悲伤留给自己，你没有看到过双子的眼泪是因为他从来不会在被人面前哭，当你看到双子的眼泪的时候，那么说明你是真的把他们的真心夺走了，因为双子真的很需要一份值得的依靠，他会每时每刻的在乎你的一切，他们很敏感的，会跟着你的快乐而快乐，跟着你的忧愁而忧愁，跟着你的改变而改变，但在你面前他们从来都是快乐的。

- 可能曾经吧？现在会较想与人分享悲伤。或许，真的想要知道到底还有谁，会把耳朵与肩膀借给我，关心我。当得不到想要的结果，除了假装快乐，还能够做什么？

爱
一提到双子的爱，一般人肯定都会说： 双子座的人最花心。可是是真的是这样吗？双子和异性的关系好只是因为他们非同一般的亲和力，而双子的真心只有一个，当他找到的时候，他就会付出自己的一切让对方得到幸福，他要的不是他自己能和对方在一起，他要的是对方的幸福，和双子在一起会感到很随和，因为他会包容你的一切，你的一切优点和缺点，和双子在一起绝对不会觉得被锁住，你只要做自己就好，因为双子喜欢的就是真实的你，做作的人根本不会得到双子的心。

-曾经，我的控制欲太强。可能到现在还是。但，相信我 =) 有人说，让你自然的爱我，不要用我的方式逼你爱我。这样对大家都好，我们都会很幸福 ^^


坚强
有人说双子很坚强，什么都不在乎，是阿，表面的双子确实很坚强，但是内心他们比任何人都脆弱，也许这也是风向 > > 星座的人的一个特性，决不会让别人看到自己脆弱的一面，因为他们都是一个有一双别人看不见翅膀的天使，天生就会给别人带来快乐，双子们的眼泪是透明的，别人看不见，可是自己却能看
得很清楚这样的透明的泪给自己开来双倍的痛。

-或许偶尔我会常说管他的，其实也并不然。有时也只是不想让人知道自己很在乎，因为我相信有些人越知道你在乎他，他反而越看你没有。这种感觉并不好受 =( 强颜欢笑，是唯一的选择。说出来，并没有比较好。因为人总是会有百分百的理由替自己强辩，没有人会喜欢被指责。只能默默的假装看不见，听不到。


人际
双子们的人缘很好，因为他们懂得你什么时候需要什么样的帮助，而且双子们会根据不同的人有不同的交往方式，双子很容易相信别人，所以经常会被欺骗，可是在欺骗后他们仍然会轻轻的笑笑然后说：没关系的，他骗我肯定会有原因。双子从来不会知道后悔是什么，因为他们时时刻刻都在为别人想，总会设身处地，可是这样别人根本就不知道，就是因为他帮助别人太多了，所以在他需要帮助的时候却总是孤立无援，然后继续的笑着，笑着找到一个角落，留下那颗透明的泪。

-也还好吧？因为太善变，对什么都有一定的好奇心。东学点西学点，自然能容易找话题。人性是鸡婆的，太渴望别人的关心，就会在别人‘关心’你时不知不觉把心事说出来，以为付出真心就会得到相同的回报。但往往，得到的还是对方的左顾而言他。久而久之，也只能苦笑着把眼泪往肚里吞。想着只少，他/她还会对着你笑 =)


朋友
当双子的朋友真的很幸福哦！因为当你遇到什么困难时，他会比你更着急，甚至会失去自己宝贵的东西也会帮助你，他会带给你快乐帮你分担忧愁，可是你却看不到他的孤独和无助，当双子看到你不高兴的时候，无论这时他有多么的郁闷，他也会立刻露出最真实的笑容来帮助你。

-因为他们无条件的对你们好，真的只是想要得到同等的对待。就算失败再失败，他还是会站起来，告诉你：我还在不用怕。他们想要的，无非只是一颗真心，一个真的会挺他，真心对他好的朋友。不是他们不要分享悲伤，只是怕这份悲伤会让人误会，把距离越拉越远。

执着
说双子善变，那只是片面之词，对于双子真正喜欢的东西，它是会执着的让人害怕的，就是因为内心太像小孩子太单纯，所以对于他们真正喜欢的东西，他们是根本就不知道放弃是什么的，除非是他们自己发现这个东西不值得，否则他们是绝对不会放弃的，只要是他们肯定的，他们就会有超出别人很多的坚持和执著。

-东西，应该还好。我身边的朋友，认识了很多年的你们，才是我最大的执著 =)


自尊
双子的自尊很重要，对于他们最重要的恐怕就是这个了，他们懂得原谅，无数次的去试着原谅，就算别人让自己千疮百孔，他们也会无条件的有自己的宽容，有自己的原则和原谅，就是因为他们的自尊，他们的自尊心让他们相信这个世界永远都是最美的，因为他们的自尊不允许自己放弃这个世界。

-因为我放弃，我就输了。曾经我放弃过，感觉~　不是很好！反而认真的去争取，努力，还比较好过。应该不会废到说结果不重要，不重要，就不会努力吧?


分享
在双子的世界里没有分享，只有是你的或者是我的，他们不会把一样东西去和别人分享，因为他们认为这样对那样东西是不公平的，因为他在乎每一个人每一样东西的感觉，只要他认为这件东西是自己可以割舍的，他绝对会无条件的退出，去成全别人，对于欺骗过他们的恋人，他会选择原谅，但绝对不会再和他们在一起，因为他懂得这样不值得。

- ...

双子座的人真的很可爱，真的很需要人的保护和安慰，他们不会放弃世界，却会放弃自己，去成全别人，他们懂得原谅和理解，无论这一秒他有多讨厌一个人，下一秒看到那个人脆弱的一面，他还是会去无条件地帮助他，真的很傻吧？但是傻的好可爱，好让人心疼，痛过以后，他们依然会笑着面对以后未知的路，继续原谅，继续理解，继续快乐，继续的傻着，改变双子真的很难吧？因为他们的心都是金刚石作的，但不是说他们无情，他们的执着只是针对自己的，那么孤傲的一个人，也只是针对自己，因为他们不知道怎么表达自己的内心，所以他们选择了沉默。

-就算我在这时大骂特骂，下一秒如果你跑来关心我，应该就算了吧？反而有时还会觉得自己想太多，虽然我真的是！适当的沉默是必须的，沉默不代表我可以继续的悲观下去。看开点，人也会开心点 ^^

加油吧！

aiks

im emo ing for hmm . u tell me .

i dont know what s this feeling .
i dont know wher it came from .
i feel , lost . and empty .

i suddenly realize why edii .
im selfish . always and still .
its not like i baru know im selfish , cos everyone s selfish .
everyone loves to being loved .
but , how do you love someone when he/she doesnt love you ?

there s once love within , yes i know .
it had changed .
i watched Kang Xi Lai Le that regarding to Show and Rainie story .
i wonder , s there any misunderstand between us ?
i kinda mind those love more love less things .
i dont really know why it became this way .

she said , they knew , and they edii cope with the love more love less things .
they are the BFF , they did it so the love last long .
now i can understand a little .
love more, ask for less.
i 'll try .
im guess im too young back then . way too naive .
apparently , i dont want this to happen too .
im sorry .

how many years we wasted .
somehow i wished a sorry too , it may soothes =)


i just wanna love you all moreee .
i know i 'll bitch at times , i know i sure gonna make u feel like slap me till i die at times .
i'll try to not to , it gonna hurt tho .

give me time .
u ever heard ppl says :
狗改不了吃屎
江山易改本性难移 ?

thats it .
it always feel better after speak ^^

lovess .
xoxo

曾经

曾经，我们很相爱
肩并肩，计划属于我们的未来
你承诺要给我幸福的生活
我也允诺会等你到那一天的到来
那时的我们，很快乐。

曾经，我很爱缠你
日或夜，我希望你总在我身边
当时你尽你所能的陪着我
我们每天都腻在一起从不觉得烦
但曾几何时，变质了。

曾经，你很宠爱我
对与否，我总是被迁就的那个
因为你爱我不舍得我难过
也因为你的爱我变的越来越过分
那时的爱情，走样了。

曾经，我们吵架了
丢下我，让我一个人面对孤单
你明知道我最害怕一个人
但你依旧扔下我想让我好好反省
但你却做错了，。。。

看着手臂上的疤痕，让我想起曾经我歇斯底里的大哭，哭着说我爱你，不想和你分开。你答应我，不会再丢下我，不会再让我伤害我自己。但不到几天，故事又重演了。
你忘了你的承诺，甚至还说我无理取闹。那时的我疯了，我不想再对你有任何期望，因为你带给我的是一次又一次的伤害。我只想保护自己，不想再相信你说的任何一句誓言。

我变了

我的世界不再围绕着你们，你们再也不是我的唯一。
或许我还是很爱很爱着你们，但这份爱让我觉得我像个白痴。

这次分开也许会有很多的舍不得，但或许这是对你最好的选择。
少了我，没人会骂你，没人会管你抽不抽烟，没人念你胡子不刮
你可继续过你想要的生活，做你想要做的事，无所顾虑。
不必再担心陪不到我，也再也不用忍我的小姐脾气。
自由自在

我也一样

今天，虽然我还是舍不下这份快要三年的感情。
但我姐说路是我自己选的，是我让这份感情变质的。
是我太好玩。
如果我想复合，我是不是能保证不会在有同样的事情发生。
我是不是能一心一意的爱着你？

我知道我不能 ＝〕

我还小，我还爱玩
从18岁就跟你在一起，快三年了。这段时间我的生活只有你们。
有你们在，我根本就不需要担心什么。
所有所有，你们都会安排好给我。

现在我大了，野了，变了。

变得离谱, 也错得离谱

分开，是最好的选择。
等我玩够了，就会后诲了吧？
到那时，你还会爱我吗？

It was like finally.

Yeapp.
We’re done.

By today, i ended our relation which had actually lasted for 2years 8months.
Wow~ how long is that.
It was like finally.
But then, i don’t know why. i feel no relief but despair.
Why?
I thought this is what i always want.

I thought i could have live better without him.
But hmmm...whats this feeling that filled inside me.

Suddenly, i remembered many things.
I remembered how nice he treated me, i remembered how bad i treated him.
I’ve never been a good gfren didn i?
My head is full of the pictures that how nice he has been.

Seriously. No one treat me better than he did.
Since when, i only saw his bad side but ignored the good one.

Im not regretting for what ‘ve i done. im just thinking why am i doing this.
Pp’s always say ‘You Know Yourself The Best’, but its not.
I’ve been asking myself whole day a question but i still cant get the answer.
I don’t know what this feeling is.
It makes me feel…..helpless.
i felt empty. i felt like crying.


I don’t know what am i gonna do next.
Im lost but who can helps me right now.


I was wondering, is this the best way turns out?

lala mood.

Lala ~ keep feel like lala-ing. ^^
Mood beli good i guessed ?

It’s a different yet simple yet happy New Year Eve i’ve had.
When the clock strikes 12, i wasn’t beside them countdown with them.
I wasn’t beside them like any year did watching pretty fireworks.
I didn get to hughug dem telling them i love them.

*patting myself*

So as New Year kan, so we experienced new feel, new thing, new way, new start xD
i was eating crispy mee when the clock strikes 12 lols. Listening to the fireworks, hearing peeps in restaurant greeting each others but not drinking and high-ing like YUUUUUUUU~.
wow~ i reali ‘ve changed.
Glanced an eye on him, i smiled =)

Went fishing with uncle at around 3.30am. Sots no ? went Muara beach and yeaa was totally high enuf to spinspin de beach upside down. Not after i know we‘ve to walk 2km of road to the destination

OO”

2km yo ! beli long distance okay == why don’t i just guaiguai sleep at home ah ?
Plus my sis accidentally drops her cammie battery so we walked back search with her tu.

Plus+ plus+ minus- minus- ..
i assumed i’ve walked “5km” barefoot on the beach of the very 1st day of 2010.
Sweet~ (sweat?) xD

But wow.. the night scene is reali reali gorgeous.
Imagine u kiss kiss ur loved one under the moonlight~
Wuuuu~ sweet sia <3
Its always feel great when u get to hold someone hand when u needed one.
Feel so protected. =)


Im ok xD


xxx


will try’na upload some random pics soon. xD




cares~

Okay..

Seriously, at least some text should be filling up here.

So let’s talk back.
met some 2days ago.
Yeaa ~ still the few of them.
Zhen, HungZhi, WeiHao~ lols, the fixed one. Then ehh~ FOOKCHERN ! surprise me tho, it has been years since i last saw him. So as well ~ Jerry Neo Boon Boon.. All boys agen == HAHA
Bcz Yen’s was still in KK and Yue’s haven got her ass back here.

Gonna arrange an outing soon ~ ^^

Feel great meeting up with with old frens. Walaupun there’s still something within but i believe ehhhh~ its gonna be ok =)
I’l try~

Maybe shud date them more often tho~ those girls blabla. Hmmm~ but im worried that i’ve got nothing to talk to dem worr.. an zua ho lehh ><
Interest beh same, topic beh same, life style beh same, hamik ochipala pun beh same ~ aiyo apakan =s

GOODNEWS !
Yue’s is gonna stay here somemore~ woohooo! As in stay~ yeaa stay! Not going back le worr.. wuuu~ <3 wa likey this. Wahahahx.
But then hmmm~ transport! We need transport, as in me too.. ><

Blabla~ what else ><


So ehhh..
Me!
Im doing ehh not so good xD
Trying to get my ass out of their ass. =x
We had changed due to my attitude and act lately. What i did to him, it reali brought me lots of complain. I shouldn’t this i shouldn’t that, stfu yo.
But then yeaa, geez i love dem. Aiks.
Hmmm~ lets talk bout this when i bo mood HAHA. Much easier to express the feeling. I felt empty now =s

Lovess~
Come back to me.

Wuuuu~

Year of 2009 is gonna end reali soon.

So as lame, many things happened this year HAHA.
stupidd
but cannot be deny that, i do changed a lot.
变好变坏 ? who cares.

Frens are coming back one by one now.
I shud rearrange those stuff and try to get along with them.
This world aint about just me and them right?

=)
Im ok tu.

Im gonna be really good. xD
Hmm ~maybe i shud go ask for my fortune, desperately wanna know what the fuck with my problems.
Huhu~
Im trying hard tu, can you see?

Well well~ left one and a half month to Chinese New Years. =)
That’s soon~ and ehh.. yeap. No worries
Everything is gonna be just fine <3

Wow~ i just notice that there are only few posts this month ==
Oops.
Yeaa~ i’ve totally lost de enthusiasm to blog lols. Maybe if uu buy me a cam den i ma upload pics lo. My bday coming soon oo~ lallala an shi somemore xb.

Well.
Dudes, im sorry for what have i done. give me some times to get over myself..
Maybe the feeling just wont go away as the scar is too deep.
It keep reminds me something stupidd. Something that i wanna forget but then i wont forgot.

I know it makes me so-not-me, for something that i knew. I avoided u dudes, isolated myself from u dudes. i shudn right? The relation within us now makes me feel bad. I don’t reali understand what had i done.
Maybe i shud try to make it up or its too late?
Dear said: 因为太熟.
Yeaa, u knew its not.

But then i shud be glad that u face me with your real feeling. Sometimes see the way we treated others make me feel like我们很假. but then, who s real ah?

Oops.

taaa!

im ok tu~

Tadaa.. lady boss went vacation for a week n i guessed now i’l have the time to blog now =)

Pp been asking me R u alright? R u ok? Cheer up okay? Blabla..
Thanks a lot i reali do appreciate =3
It makes feel im actually not alone =) as in ehhhh..like if i willing to step out n accept those. I’d have much more than what im having now ^^

Im not reali emo everyday actually.
Its simply just that ehhhh...when im happy i ma play lo, dota ~ chatting ~ flirting ~ fb-ing ~… sometimes i wanted to blog oso la, but oo the mood is just not right HAHA. I rather go play dota ==. When im free den i ma sleep lo, rest rest den night wake up continue play with him again.

No life !

When im moody ~ den i ma sleep bu xia den i ma blog lo lols. Since no mood ma~ scandal don’t choi me, ah lai cari my pasal somemore. Sasak tu, i ma emo lo. Be ostrich lo~ hide myself somemore, off msn off garena off phone like i ma no need care anyone. Den ma blog lo..

Patut that u all always see i emo lo. Im sowiii~
xD

im ok =)
lovess~
ai si ni men xD

Fine ~

Okay fine dont tahan =)

ITS OK ! =)

We err argued again yesterday night.
(walao, everyday quarrelled quarelled, bu siens?)
LOLS, must be there some pp think like dis edii.

xD

well, i know im wrong, im bad, im a flirt, im a bitch, im stuupid, im selfish, im too sensitive, im to bound to myself. LOLS i know that !

but i aint stopping somemore.

why?
Dont know.

Since he cant understand what i said, how i feel.
I 'll let him feel it then.
But then, he doesnt care.
He s only think about, im way too over.

wlaupun i told him, its not about de matter.
its about how we felt.
Still, its de same.
Im still wrong, im still bitch, im still flirt, im still diediee xD

lols, im keeping myself good xb.

ITS OK !
pheww~

well, im wondering y my emm blog status is not updated ?

tadaa!

suddenly.

i feel like open it.
lols.

It had been awhile since my last post, so enn enn ~
will update soon weeheee!

xiang nii <3

finally, a short note xb

tadang tadaa ~

A fren of mine s gonna get married soon.

As soon as this coming saturday.
Well, if im not mistaken.
they had ah chua lii paktoh for yearssssssss.
yea ~ s-sess
if im not mistaken agen. shud be nearly 10years le, hmm maybe 6 7 8 or 9years.

wooss. how long is that.

for only 2years, we seem like walking to the end soon.
Lols.

those quarrels blabla~ apparently, the chemistry between us had changed =x

so~ if he s not gonna tolerate with me no more.
how we continued then.

aiks. im always the bad temper type.

maybe i shall hide myself and be a good good gfren.
=)

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

winks

Feel at ease when decision is finally made =)
lallala~

hmm.
Aunt is here.
She nag, she cares, she force me to had dinner. Lols shes cute xD
She and my younger aunt prove that me n my sis are not weirdo due to our sotsotness, they are sots too ^^''

gonna 've a Yu's family gathering tomoro night =)
so ennn...'ll take pictures and upload here.
It probably not gonna catch your eye but better than nothing eh?

xxx

-Budget-
From now on, i NEED to save. Well i did save everymonth but hell~ i think i cant even buy a nice pair of shoes with that don't say im gonna buy new lappy ==

its been 2month since my lappy broke down. Im still thinking whether its better for me to get it repair, or brand new one..
So~ lets see.. It 'll cost me around $400 to $600 of repairation, but no guarantee. Means around 1yr lifetime left after that.
A brand new lappy cost me $1000 with 3years warranty but the appearance is suckiiish. I didn mean to insult Acer but hmm..reali don prefer Acer luu T T

So~ how?? sigh..

Gonna pay for my bband dy~
sasak eh..
Money is not everything but without money, u can do nothing.. fuckit.

Nabu, nowadays de spend rate.
Be prostitute oso not enough use ==ll

taa~

September Ended

Gosh.
Im dying.

Heart is utterly pain.
Feel cramp cramp deii since i woke up yesterday morning, i tot its gonna be ok since it happens quite a few times recently.

no no~

its getting more serious ==
kiu dao i can't even move barely can breath. lols im scared.
Feel so much regret that i shud listen to the doctor mustnt have too much coffee and don over sport.
I admit im having too much coffee recently but i didn over sport worr =(

after resting, im getting much better. but hmm still kiu kiu deii, pain pain deii~ but ok luu..at least can breath, sit beli guai-ly at my place =) im worried.
Im'ma gonna die in any second T T.. Blessed me.
Omitohut haliluuya.

After few hours later. September is gonna end as well as my emo-ness =)
im cheering up xb
so biitch.. i noe u worried but im not acting happy im just trying to be happy. maii stupid oOo

si beh eng again.
Was playing with the minesweeper but keep losing T T damn not vista.. diu~

Emily had resigned =)
she said she hasn't been reali taking a good care on her daughter, its time for her to takes the responsibility for being a good mother.
How sweet~

ennn..positive thinking comes automatically when u're in a good mood ^^

so~ why not xD
drinking my beloved coffee again, sigh.. Its not good to health wat. Why u just dont listen kan?


byeee september~!



care's MoMo~ <3

Blackout

No current ? No water ?
Which one is preferable ?

Sigh~
The blackout just now reali scared me out..
Was alone in the room and *pooof* it became super dark, i can't reach my phone no where T T
yelling for mummy but no one hears me.
sad.

Since my hse area is the soi-est area. Never once blackout is without us so yea, tot its gonna be as usual blackout till morning ==ll

Aunt brought us to had DQ and Pizza *loved*

off to tehtehh~
got a msg from mama around 12 mentioned that its back to normal ^^
nice~
at least this time he's doesnt need to puutpuut me whole night in case i didn sleep well =)
yea....true.
Since when i can't see what he had done good for me, sigh~

im sowiii~

i'll be good *winks*