Having black template for too long decided to make a little change ^^ okay maybe not a little ~ Cant find anything that i like so end up made this myself , simple and easy . only the layout belongs to blogger all the background and effects , edited / added by ME . praise me now thankiu ! a bit messy but itsokayy ~ everyone love rainbow
was supposed to write a post about recently feel and thoughts just dont know where to start
oh well . i dont know compare to before , my life had changed so much for good ? im not sure still trying to cope with it
oh . i had a dream a few days back those in my room , squeezing on my little bed talking bout dinosaur has how many teeth lol . thats cute not until bitch showed up and grab them away from me good . now even in my dream she also want bully me why i didn slap her in my dream , since its my dream i should have take control of it right stupid . yet pathetic
well , move on . give more expect less things well get better eventually if i care less just like i will get slimmer eventually if i eat less
eye s getting better
i dont really know why it suddenly become red
doc just said , sensitive .
yeayea , best explanation
the doc s hot tho .
sexy yet pretty
xxx
im getting fat everyday .
cz i keep eating and eating and eating
rmb i swear i wanna wear bikini on the beach and get many many attention .
yeaa , i would definitely get attention bcz im gonna be look like THIS !
instead of THIS aww , sienness .
when am i gonna xia ding jue xin diet like a sjb .
till im 80kg ? perhaps 100kg !
craving for the song What Hurts The Most - Racsal Flatts todayy yeaa , since i woke up this morning . maybe i dream of the song last night ? gahh , IDK ! the melody just keep pusing pusing in my head .
but , it didn annoy me ~ thats weird . so i get the iPod on , and..... NEXT like no tomorrow just to look for the song HAHA . repeated the song MANUALLY nnnnnnnnnnn times . ahh ~ satisfied finally .
and now , its playing randomly . old song new song ~ whats killing me , its like each of the song brings back different feeling .
xxx
after an hour . i forgot that i actually blog - ing . stucked . the mood gone HAHA
finally , i won the fight against Emo's . *victory smileee* with the help of my Da Yi Ma , thanks ! ILY YOU LOSERR . *do L on forehead* LAME . HAHA =$
alright cool cool ~ so whats up todayy . feel a little spontaneous , but im stucked in office =s mana ada bikinii , aku mau go seeeseeee . having sportings mood but i guess better not ho ? feeling of craving for FOOD has gone but still , i wan cabonara ! or just any western food . eg : STEAK W/FRIES W/BLACK PEPPER SAUCE . yummyumm ^^
okays i just wanna go out todayyy , lets go gamess ! err ... *stun for few secs* forget about gamess =D i really want some sports todayy =( scout center s probably full ~ no swimming for me ~ nada bball ~ hate jogging ~ okays , 1 left . FOOTBALL ! shenjing !
i think imma end up at home laying on bed slack with my dramass . oh nono , i shud pratice the piano =D - River Flows in You ! its ~ simple yet complicated == aiks , i bu huiiiiii ~ T____________________T
lets see lets seeee . zai da suan !
xxx
Hey love , i just realised that , u never said anything like you aint gonna give up on me . in fact , i left you =)
altho we still quarrelled like shitt now , sometimes . each time we fought i felt like giving up . umpteen times i imagined the scene of you leaving me . i told myself to be prepared if you really do . but you were still here . always here =) thanks love .
Clean my room , sparkling clean that kind . meaning i’ve to deal with the dust . FML
Practice piano urm i mean keyboard , for at least… an hour ?
A new blogger template !
Songs and Pictures , arrange properly . stop New Folder 1 2 3 4 ing ~ ==
Clean the lappy .
Clean the aircon thingthing , dust again !
My table , such a mess !
Cloths , everywhere =s
Nail polish =D
Be happy =)
anything ~ just stop sticking on the bed and just play games . no life man !
xxx
it seems like it has been awhile i didn touch dota , kinda miss the days when i playing it like there s no tomorrow . play CS recently at SNB . i don’t know what s nice about there but they say the computers are nicer . for me , its nice because the yummy BAN MIAN is just downstair HAHA , oops ` ! and seriously , im fuckily noob ! although it s fun to play with ‘em , funny die . to compare , i really love Dota so much moree .
but too bad , my time just don’t match with others =)
xxx
alright , im not in good mood . i didn know why , i just don’t . feel like sporting and sweat like no tomorrow . it should be nothing that bothers me . shouldn’t be .
Mayb prejudiced control me , but i personally SERIOUSLY dislike her wall post to her friend . Its too rude when u’re telling your fren LUCKILY its not him who dies it can be more personal , but not on public .
xxx
Heart-aching is getting worse this week , it pains eveydayy , perhaps every morning or sometimes night ? I don’t know why every morning but it does make me feel like im gonna die anytime too who s gonna drops his/her tears for me ?
okay CHOI ! *touch wood*
: drink less coffee , ‘ve more rest everyday this s what my heart tells me to do BUT , i failed =D
I had a dream this morning , i dreamt that i’ve a day off today =D
In dream i woke up late so my mum asked me to call and say im sick apply mc blabla . i hesitated . she called at last and we went hiking . =s
And don’t know howwhenwhy , we were in a restaurant enjoying breakfast . Nice holiday except that my phone kept ringing .
I reached my phone , and i woke up . GAHH it’s a dream . &%$@@!$#%^$@
Just when i swearing in my heart , my mum rushed in shouted at me : HEY ! u were late !! its already 9plus hai bu kuai kuai get up shower now and move ur ass . Ohh craps . Stun for few seconds . I replied her i don’t wanna go to work , just call and said im sick , without any hesitation HAHA . she helps me to call and i way off to lalaland ~
but this time i were sleeping so-not peacefully something keep pusing pusing in my mind until my phone rang again . I tried to ignore it but that’s actually very annoying tho .
Once agen , i reached my phone and i noticed the time - 7.10am ! FML , another dream ! ==
TIAN AH ~ ! WEI SOMOK JIANG ZI DUI WO ! T T
xxx
in office ... Heavy rain pours suddenly , it feels just great =) Really love the noises it brings .
Raindrops keep falling on my head ~ they keep falling ~
feel like talking much todayy . don’t really know why , maybe its holiday ? anyways , sharing is caring =) so , just listen =)
i think my pms started too soon this month , but im really stress of everything , or nearly everything .
‘ve been a big spender recently and im seriously worried that imma ‘ve not enough fund for the KL trip . maybe , just enough . but u know ~ comparing to Bruneii , KL is much like a shopping HEAVEN . without enough $$ , meaning no shopping . it’s a super sad thing . At this time , im thinking . why am i not rich family kids ?
Days in office suck to the core . im bored and doing nothing most of the time . my phone was always in my hand . chatting , fb , twitter , blogreading and blablashitt . i always fished in the early morning , and i guess my boss already knew about it . i couldn’t pay enough attention on the work assigned to me , yes i finished it in time just ~ u know , delay delay delay until the last minute . when i get bored , i always slacking around fb like almost every 10mins although i ‘ve told myself a billion times there s nth to see .
Open web – bookmark – facebook – view home page – nth – exit . after *5-10mins* repeat again . =s
Say , if im the boss , i’d have probably sack ‘ this ‘ worker no matter how high efficiency she was . sometimes u really get upset much when u tried to impressed your boss by doing works nice and fast but they never appreciated it .
I’ve got a job opportunity , i guess . a better salary which is better for my future if i really wanted to study . but , i don’t think i can simply just give 1month notice and leave like that . im not saying im kind but think of it . if i leave here , how are they going to get compatible with their works ? im doing like nearly 90% of the works , how m i gonna pass the job to someone else in a month ? it sounds like a little irresponsible but the whole world is telling me : who cares ? neither you care if none is appreciating .
Who doesn’t get fed up when u work for almost 3years with no increment ?
AND , i really she bu de the to quit the job here . too relaxing and the 3.30 ! its like , a loadssssssssss moreee than others =s i’ve got moreeee time to slack ~ sleep ~ daydreaming ~ and EXERCISES ! aiya , sometimes i just think maybe i should just stop complaining and just stay ! live my life enjoy and relax with no challenge . wait for a rich guy drops from the sky marry him and be a Shao Nai Nai . dreaming much ? lols .
Think of my family future makes me stress , my mum’s just a typical housewife who has not working since the age of 20+ . IF , im not going to study , how am i gonna support my family future ? when my dad retires ? to buy a house for them ? to let them enjoy and take good care of them ? like how ? they always adore my bro much but he s just such a ermm , u know ~ spoilt , not clever type , immature , a form 4 student who doesn’t even wash his own plate and iron his own uniform . 茶来伸手，饭来张口.. aiks .
what moree if i go for a course . what course shud i take ? CAT ‘d be the best choice bcz……hmm girls = accountant ? seriously i don’t think im interested in accounts and too i don’t know whether if im capable to study account . i’ve failed it 5years straight in highschool =s i didn study for it yea , so ? i cannot guarantee also whether IF i can pass even IF i study for it ? lols . thinking of going KL , since its much cheaper there . but , living costs and expenses ? and , the life there + my personality ? lols , i’ve already got a picture of me shaking my ass off saying Eyyy Ohhh ~ ! ahems . back to topic . i told my mum about my plan few days ago . roughly about im going blabla , if cheap blabla , den i might need them support me a little blabla . and tadaaaa , she continued with her eyes on tv without any expression nor a single word just like she never knows im talking to her . great ~ ! so what now ?
Many has asked me to study what im interested with if i really going to . but , as a Gemini , can say apa apa i pun ada hengchu LOLS . to choose one , interior design maybe ?
I like art , but i don’t think im creative enough . design is not like account or computing or business or whatever . those for me are like , even u’re not talented , just put more effort and study study study like no theres no tmr . as long as u put more hard work on it.
But design ? i don’t really know how it goes but what if one day they asking for creative and inspire doesn’t come to you ? and , brunei don have this special course for interior design ? ada ~ technical school speaking that only Yellow and Red IC has the chance to be chosen .
Life’s been really stress as we peeps grow up each day . responsibility comes to you no matter what . although me myself , i , always complaint that my parents don’t pay enough attention on me or don’t care me like they did to my sister and brother .
Still , seeing my dad comes home late with the tiring face makes me grief , thinking he wouldn have to so xin ku if im capable enough . My mum married to my dad when she was still at my age . she had actually wasted her youth to take care of we siblings . and yet we ‘re not still not able to full sponsor her even on a simple vacation ?
If only Neverland does exist .
Lols . suddenly feel whats with the emotional . PMS , u just fucked me up . Anyways , hope everything goes smooth .
its been a day . im in a good mood agen . yess im weird i know .
Say , i really wanna have good relation with the ‘ Ex ’ . u know ~ as in 分手后还是朋友 that kind . but , gahhh . hard .
I don’t really understand what he wants . I think , he trying to let me know he cant sleep well because of me .? Msg me in de middle of the night ask me to have a talk with him bcz his emo effed up ; msg me randomly tell heyy i ‘ve not been sleeping these 2days , im siaoedii ; 7 early 8 early in the morning msg meHi , i didn sleep last night , im gonna die later .
well ~ emmm ~ lols ?
if not . 7 early 8 early . msg me Hi . … Yes Hi . full stop . that’s all . i wonder what he expect for my reply . Hi back . Hello . Hey . ? apakaN ? speechless .
u don wan sleep , that’s ur problem . its your own choice . U don wan sleep , but u kept bising everyday , i don have enough sleep T T , i wan my bed , i need to sleep . that’s annoying .
What effed up most s . stop waking me up in de middle of the night NOR early morning !
U don’t want to effing sleep s your own effing problems stop effing wake me up to read those effing meaningless msg endure you effing emo .
You wanna msg me s your own choice , i cant reject , but please . use ur brain , choose a right time !
Gahhh ! just EFF u !
ahems . cool down .
so . was going to excaped today , suppose . but cancelled , postponed to tomorrow . this s a little sad . because the sushi s running running marry go round in my head de whole morning HAHA .
its okays ~ i’ll go for my family dinner then . uncle strikes 1st agen , so yes , a treat =D hmm ~ what a luck he has , it’s the 2nd time edii nehs . Oh yes , i think i forgot to mention . He strikes 1st prize too in June and he bought a mobile for me as my bday present =D I think i shud start buying 4D too , HAHA .
Been helping with their assignment again recently. =)
Due to the late sleep-ing. My mensus came much more earlier =x as in errr.nearly a week
He says : Not healthy = beh chun No sleep = Not healthy
= ask me sleep early?
lols. <3
2012 is on show now but yeaa~ no pp 've got the time to peii me watch. Sad. They said shao shao need till Dec baru free worr. geez.
Nvm~ play Dota tadi n WAHAHAHX i've got MEGA KILL. ITS MEGA KILL YO. Okay fine~ its normal for those pro la but i had stopped for half year worrrrr. xD suang dao. ^^
For saying i dont like to go HaiNan. im going there today, just now, again.
Still, many many uncles WITH kidss which irritate me lotss.. Grrrr
Still, we didn get to play till late late.
Still, im tired!! i think i need to retired edi, leii leii miee.
Kelv joined us today and yea....bully me somemore. aiks.
Planned to go Dear house after that but bcz of him hmm i went back home. why ? i dont know. Just simply feel like going home, to chat.
lols! please tell me y im so addicted to this so-not-right relation? no no ~ better not to think about it. =)
xxx
Sleepless week. Almost everyday, i sleep at 4 or 5, wake up at 7. So did yesterday night and guess what. i dont feel sleepy nor tired. Just erm, boring bcz he went to rest. Suddenly, i dont know what should i do atm bcz for a week. i 've been spending my time Dota-ing and chatting somemore.
So yea~ i guess i 'l just wait him to wake up ba.
Crazyness.
in a emm beli weird mood. Im not happy, im not sad. I dont feel normal too, feel like emm im looking for something but yet its lost. but i knew, i'l have just got it back.
wtf im talking about.
♪ ♪I used to call you my boy I used to call you my friend I used to call you the love The love that I never had
When I think of you I don't know what to do When will I see you again
I miss you like crazy Even More than words can say
I miss you like crazy Every minute of every day
Boy I'm so down when your love's not around
I miss you, miss you, miss you
I miss you like crazy
You are all that I want You are all that I need Can't you see how I feel Can't you see that my pain's so real
When I think of you I don't know what to do When will I see you again♪ ♪
