aaah

So hmm..
Im doing BAD.
Suffer from insomnia lols

I sleep beli well in the afternoon tu.
You might think i sleep too much in the afternoon jadi night cant sleep kan.
Ngek ngek ! u’re wrong !
Sometimes, even i’ve only had 1hour of sleep a day,
But when night reached. I reali feel super duper semangat.
Even my eyes feel tired my mind just wont rest
How come ah~

Wake up in the midnight and realize that u’re alone.
wow
It feels suck.

My mum chiong in my room today at near 6am and nags me.
How cute~ babble in the early morning.
She not tired ka?
Early morning lai hong ?
I guessed she heard my phone rang and she ‘thought’ i didn sleep whole night and yea so she goes blablabla agen.
in the early morning
Whatever she thought never goes wrong, she s mighty !
SAK WOW YEAH

zzz
speechless

i think i ‘l go hardcore sport later or maybe go out n clean my room and make myself as tired as possible so tadaa ~ i can sleep early tonight ?
hope so ~

sick of mama nagging edii.
Can i be guaii abit ?
Like a good daughter or something ?
NAHH!
In my dream !
==


xxx

Idiocy of SAK WOW YEAH

Alright~

Games.
vs
Gamers.


I m not gamers alright.
I play games, n i quit-ED.
Bcz the lost of the laptop.

After break up.
My world is like full of gamers.
Those who find me chat are gamers~ those i went out with also gamers.
wow
==

went out last Saturday with frens.
met teammate Ricky !
Whose i love die him chim chim.
Lols.
He’s just a 16years old kid alright
A beli beli li hai kid
I love die him he loves die me
We love die each other
SAK WOW YEAH
<3

Feel so lifeless
went out 11pm ~ and yeaa watch them eat and lalla we went NBK to play Dota ==
Cute not?
Teo, Ricky, Vincent, CheeWei, Hawaii..
Peii me somemore.
Dota somemore.
Go cyber somemore

wow
i feel stupidd.
Cyber on Saturday night.
Cute cham =s

Yeaa i know they trying to keep me entertained but hmmmm…
Its weird, super weird..

Went RF’s pusing pusing and they all were like~

: Ah Lai lehh Ah Lai lehh~
: Break edii lo
: HAHA impossible lar, stop kidding larr Ah Lai lehh Ah Lai lehh~
: Reali ba ~ i lie u zomok.
: Don keh keh larr ~ Ah Lai lehh Ah Lai lehh ~
: At home !
: Ohhhh ~ early say ma ~
(like this baru they gan yuan) za dao !

Liew Ah lai, u macam my TradeMark wehh.
AHAHAHAHA

watever.
Hmmmmmmmmm.

Went home after 2games and tehteh.
Feel benben deii to go out like this but yeaa at least got pp keep me companion ma.
(an wei-ing myself)


Hais.
I feel like sleeping!
taaaaaaaaa~

idk

apane.
=s
Somehow, i wished that Sunday can come faster.
wat im thinking oo =l
idk.

Dependent ba ><
Makes me feel so cacated now.
Honestly, we might patch up. Altho i don’t reali thinking to patch up but i think that we will patch up but yea i really don want to patch up but i do oso.
apakaN?

Sometimes it really comes sasak to me.
Im seriously thinking, no one bring me go Miri shopping edii. =(
Im thinking when i sleep i’ve got no one to nag le wor =s .. when theres thunder O.O…awww~
Im thinking when im hungry but i lazy to cook n bo lang cook for wa edii.

Small matters lols.

But then its part of my life wat~ ofcz theres more better example but hmmm…mee goreng =s

When im going to get used to it ? i don’t like this feeling.
ishhh~ can i get bitchy on this.
The hesitation is killing me !!

[-He- asked me to go back to them. he said maybe i cant see it myself but yea he knows i she bu de fang xia this all. It’s the relation i had built up for years. M i ren xin to let go like this for nothing.]

fuck it
im going out to play play play !
get myself a life !
A ummm ~ Life of NoLife =)

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA !!

I.D.K

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Please give some support and help to intro to your fren~ cousins~ blabla.
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xoxo

Lazy Sunday ==

ishhh… he ppk-ed me ==

he was suppose to come my house today and take back his belonging.



He said make it next sunday means i have to wait another week more to get all the things clear. =s

I don’t know what i unclear about tho. Everything been settled thru msg hmm sounds a lil irresponsible right.



I did date him out tho but hmmm while date-ing, sparkle up thru msging agen so yeaa. lols not jadi.

Sigh



Sunday Sunday ~ lallalala ~

Gosh i haven’t arranged my room yet.

Aiks, u know ~ arrange and hm block de window so nobody can climb in those blabla shit.

Im lazy lar, de things so heavy somemore =s



So i just stucking my butt on bed watching drama wuu ~ enjoy sia. ==









I want pattaya xD

ORAITE

Apa this slang~?
Oops alright~

Feeling of weirdness is still filling me up.
lols
being single yeaa. hmmm…it’s a lil siok, it was like wow u can ehh..do whatever u want without considering. But hmmm it was bored too, because there’s no longer someone who’s ought to keep u accompany.

Means when u’re bored, u find urself a thing to do~
Tadaalaa ~

Im watching drama ! oops~ old drama ><

Zhong Ji Yi Jia

It was a super bored drama with lot of magic Wu la Ma Ha Wu La Ma Ha everywhere and with lot of nonsense. Sometimes, i found the fatty voice was a little annoying and i muted it !

(whats the point of watching den)

Hmmmm~ it keeps me entertain ? it makes up some voices in my room so i wont feel empty ? Other than drama ? well ehhhhh..,internet ! but then ehh ~ getting bored on facebook == lazy chat somemore, cannot dota as well.

So yeaa ><

N im beli beli sick after went swimming with sis yesterday.
Shud have more exercise regularly. Keep fit tu =s
CNY is coming so so soon ~ gonna go SHOPPING !

Wuuuu~ Crap sia ><


xxx

Wake up in the morning feeling like P Diddy
(Hey, what up girl?)
Grab my glasses, I'm out the door, I'm gonna hit this city
(Lets go)
Before I leave, brush my teeth with a bottle of Jack
'Cause when I leave for the night, I ain't coming back

I'm talking pedicure on our toes, toes
Trying on all our clothes, clothes
Boys blowing up our phones, phones
Drop-topping, playing our favorite CDs
Pulling up to the parties
Trying to get a little bit tipsy

Don't stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, I'mma fight
'Til we see the sunlight
Tick tock on the clock
But the party don't stop, no

Don't stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, I'mma fight
'Til we see the sunlight
Tick tock, on the clock
But the party don't stop, no

Ain't got a care in world, but got plenty of beer
Ain't got no money in my pocket, but I'm already here
And now, the dudes are lining up cause they hear we got swagger
But we kick em to the curb unless they look like Mick Jagger

I'm talking about everybody getting crunk, crunk
Boys tryin' to touch my junk, junk
Gonna smack him if he getting too drunk, drunk

Now, now, we go until they kick us out, out
Or the police shut us down, down
Police shut us down, down
Po-po shut us

Don't stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, I'mma fight
'Til we see the sunlight
Tick tock on the clock
But the party don't stop, no

Don't stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, I'mma fight
'Til we see the sunlight
Tick tock on the clock
But the party don't stop, no

DJ, you build me up
You break me down
My heart, it pounds
Yeah, you got me

With my hands up
You got me now
You got that sound
Yeah, you got me

DJ, you build me up
You break me down
My heart, it pounds
Yeah, you got me

With my hands up
Put your hands up
Put your hands up

Now, the party don't start 'til I walk in

Don't stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, I'mma fight
'Til we see the sunlight
Tick tock on the clock
But the party don't stop, no

Don't stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, I'mma fight
'Til we see the sunlight
Tick tock on the clock
But the party don't stop, no


Kesha – Tik Tok

曾经

曾经，我们很相爱
肩并肩，计划属于我们的未来
你承诺要给我幸福的生活
我也允诺会等你到那一天的到来
那时的我们，很快乐。

曾经，我很爱缠你
日或夜，我希望你总在我身边
当时你尽你所能的陪着我
我们每天都腻在一起从不觉得烦
但曾几何时，变质了。

曾经，你很宠爱我
对与否，我总是被迁就的那个
因为你爱我不舍得我难过
也因为你的爱我变的越来越过分
那时的爱情，走样了。

曾经，我们吵架了
丢下我，让我一个人面对孤单
你明知道我最害怕一个人
但你依旧扔下我想让我好好反省
但你却做错了，。。。

看着手臂上的疤痕，让我想起曾经我歇斯底里的大哭，哭着说我爱你，不想和你分开。你答应我，不会再丢下我，不会再让我伤害我自己。但不到几天，故事又重演了。
你忘了你的承诺，甚至还说我无理取闹。那时的我疯了，我不想再对你有任何期望，因为你带给我的是一次又一次的伤害。我只想保护自己，不想再相信你说的任何一句誓言。

我变了

我的世界不再围绕着你们，你们再也不是我的唯一。
或许我还是很爱很爱着你们，但这份爱让我觉得我像个白痴。

这次分开也许会有很多的舍不得，但或许这是对你最好的选择。
少了我，没人会骂你，没人会管你抽不抽烟，没人念你胡子不刮
你可继续过你想要的生活，做你想要做的事，无所顾虑。
不必再担心陪不到我，也再也不用忍我的小姐脾气。
自由自在

我也一样

今天，虽然我还是舍不下这份快要三年的感情。
但我姐说路是我自己选的，是我让这份感情变质的。
是我太好玩。
如果我想复合，我是不是能保证不会在有同样的事情发生。
我是不是能一心一意的爱着你？

我知道我不能 ＝〕

我还小，我还爱玩
从18岁就跟你在一起，快三年了。这段时间我的生活只有你们。
有你们在，我根本就不需要担心什么。
所有所有，你们都会安排好给我。

现在我大了，野了，变了。

变得离谱, 也错得离谱

分开，是最好的选择。
等我玩够了，就会后诲了吧？
到那时，你还会爱我吗？

It was like finally.

Yeapp.
We’re done.

By today, i ended our relation which had actually lasted for 2years 8months.
Wow~ how long is that.
It was like finally.
But then, i don’t know why. i feel no relief but despair.
Why?
I thought this is what i always want.

I thought i could have live better without him.
But hmmm...whats this feeling that filled inside me.

Suddenly, i remembered many things.
I remembered how nice he treated me, i remembered how bad i treated him.
I’ve never been a good gfren didn i?
My head is full of the pictures that how nice he has been.

Seriously. No one treat me better than he did.
Since when, i only saw his bad side but ignored the good one.

Im not regretting for what ‘ve i done. im just thinking why am i doing this.
Pp’s always say ‘You Know Yourself The Best’, but its not.
I’ve been asking myself whole day a question but i still cant get the answer.
I don’t know what this feeling is.
It makes me feel…..helpless.
i felt empty. i felt like crying.


I don’t know what am i gonna do next.
Im lost but who can helps me right now.


I was wondering, is this the best way turns out?

OMG

LAPTOP KENA STOLEN MCB.
apakan ><
since when my house area so unsafe ahh ==
hmmm ~

The thief actually comes in from my window. N guessed wat he's stupid.
My HDD was on table he didnt take. Even de laptop battery was peacefully laying there he didn take too.

stupidd.

Neighbour uncle saw someone wandering around my window around 7pm. wow thats kinda early tho. Mr.Thief actually climb in my room somemore to take de laptop bag. He dares to come in ehh OMG. My family was just at living room ehh. Does he not scared that someone was in the room? does he not scared that someone might just open my door room n shoutt AAAHHH like that ?

soii si lar ><

shud i go baibai or something?

Stupidd thief.

I CURSED U!!
grrr

Random Pics

NiiNiiChan~its been awhile tho *siaks*

me n er ah mu

the kids who come my house zuo luan play. xD

=>

xxx

well, trust me. i reali wanted to upload more pics but the connection was lost.
for quite a few times nehs ==
pekchek + lazyness

nxt time will do =)

lala mood.

Lala ~ keep feel like lala-ing. ^^
Mood beli good i guessed ?

It’s a different yet simple yet happy New Year Eve i’ve had.
When the clock strikes 12, i wasn’t beside them countdown with them.
I wasn’t beside them like any year did watching pretty fireworks.
I didn get to hughug dem telling them i love them.

*patting myself*

So as New Year kan, so we experienced new feel, new thing, new way, new start xD
i was eating crispy mee when the clock strikes 12 lols. Listening to the fireworks, hearing peeps in restaurant greeting each others but not drinking and high-ing like YUUUUUUUU~.
wow~ i reali ‘ve changed.
Glanced an eye on him, i smiled =)

Went fishing with uncle at around 3.30am. Sots no ? went Muara beach and yeaa was totally high enuf to spinspin de beach upside down. Not after i know we‘ve to walk 2km of road to the destination

OO”

2km yo ! beli long distance okay == why don’t i just guaiguai sleep at home ah ?
Plus my sis accidentally drops her cammie battery so we walked back search with her tu.

Plus+ plus+ minus- minus- ..
i assumed i’ve walked “5km” barefoot on the beach of the very 1st day of 2010.
Sweet~ (sweat?) xD

But wow.. the night scene is reali reali gorgeous.
Imagine u kiss kiss ur loved one under the moonlight~
Wuuuu~ sweet sia <3
Its always feel great when u get to hold someone hand when u needed one.
Feel so protected. =)


Im ok xD


xxx


will try’na upload some random pics soon. xD




cares~

2010. =)

HI ~
(you know my slang xD)

Happy 2010 ! woos. having fun ? xD
Ennhmm.. well~ pp been asking for my new year resolution worr.
lols. an zua oo ><

well. so ehh be a little selfish-ish.

i wished im xing fu.
so as u all.
=)

so hmmm.
Enjoy ur days.
=)

HAPPY 2010!
mwacks

cares ~