wo lei le .

seriously , im tired le .

because of that stick . u lied and lied and lied and lied and……
u always said u will quit . and u always failed .

sometimes im not asking you to quit but at least smoke less .
u said you will . and u failed too .

and when i said , at least ask for a permission . for what u so call a respect
u said okay , u will . and u failed again .

when i said only 1 or 2 .
u said okay .

when i didn know .
u say it was just 1 or 2

when it goes to 4 or 5
u pretend that u forgot our deal .

when i look at you .
u pretend that u forgot again , to ask me 1st .

when i question it .
u said , 5 is less enough .

actually , i wonder who actually the one u want to hold everyday .
the stick , or me ?

without that little stick . u gonna suffer . u gonna have symptoms . u will feel like dying . u gonna miss that stick every single second . u want it god damn much , more than anything in this world . not even your health may vary the priority .

without me . nothing s gonna happen . some more , u’ve freedom . what more , u’ve that stick to keep you accompany . to release your ‘ stress ’ .
even more , u will have bunch of your bros telling you , so what about girl ? all girls shud shut up .
sounds great eyy ?


girls , we such a loser .

iPod

its killing me .

craving for the song What Hurts The Most - Racsal Flatts todayy
yeaa , since i woke up this morning . maybe i dream of the song last night ?
gahh , IDK ! the melody just keep pusing pusing in my head .

but , it didn annoy me ~ thats weird .
so i get the iPod on , and..... NEXT like no tomorrow just to look for the song HAHA .
repeated the song MANUALLY nnnnnnnnnnn times . ahh ~ satisfied finally .

and now , its playing randomly . old song new song ~
whats killing me , its like each of the song brings back different feeling .


xxx


after an hour .
i forgot that i actually blog - ing .
stucked .
the mood gone HAHA

xoxo . tataa

loser .

finally , i won the fight against Emo's . *victory smileee* with the help of my Da Yi Ma , thanks ! ILY
YOU LOSERR . *do L on forehead*
LAME . HAHA =$

alright cool cool ~
so whats up todayy .
feel a little spontaneous , but im stucked in office =s
mana ada bikinii , aku mau go seeeseeee .
having sportings mood but i guess better not ho ?
feeling of craving for FOOD has gone but still , i wan cabonara !
or just any western food . eg : STEAK W/FRIES W/BLACK PEPPER SAUCE . yummyumm ^^

okays i just wanna go out todayyy , lets go gamess !
err ... *stun for few secs*
forget about gamess =D i really want some sports todayy =(
scout center s probably full ~ no swimming for me ~ nada bball ~ hate jogging ~
okays , 1 left . FOOTBALL !
shenjing !

i think imma end up at home laying on bed slack with my dramass .
oh nono , i shud pratice the piano =D
- River Flows in You !
its ~ simple yet complicated ==
aiks , i bu huiiiiii ~ T____________________T

lets see lets seeee .
zai da suan !



xxx



Hey love ,
i just realised that , u never said anything like you aint gonna give up on me .
in fact , i left you =)

altho we still quarrelled like shitt now , sometimes .
each time we fought i felt like giving up .
umpteen times i imagined the scene of you leaving me .
i told myself to be prepared if you really do .
but you were still here .
always here =)
thanks love .

heartss max .

^o)

tell me what are the differences between giving up and moving on .

it confused me .
i tot when u gave up , then you moved on .

how people gonna move on IF they didn’t give it up ?

how people gonna move on IF they never let it goes ?

or maybe insisting the word move on instead of give up makes people sound with more….. dignity ?
perhaps in singlish - die wan face .
is this what we so called human nature ?

in my world , promises vanished when people decided to give up .
they fall , they failed , they moved on with their new life .

in my world , insisting what you insisted meant nothing .
still ,
those blablashitt vanished .

yet ,
its not like what had been said .

so ,
what you think ?

move on without giving up
sounds more like a joke .
because i can see no blablashitt here with me no moree .

izit there s only 1 type of relation left ? i tot things could be better than now .
IF you’re right , IF u insisted only 1choice you made , where have you been ?

im bored , so imma blog .
im emo todayy , many things come up in mind .
bad one , good one .

i’ve got nothing to do in office today but to pretend like i do .
this is tiring .
im waiting for msgs . waiting me Da Yi Ma comes visit . waiting the boss to call me for interview . waiting dec to reach . waiting money drops from sky . waiting you to reach me . waiting him too , to reach me . sounds like i busy enough ?
i just wanted someone who can be with me 7/24 . not physically ofcz , mentally , truly .

i apologize .
but i really feel aint good with this . its nothing same as before .
feel like , im distance – ed .
i might forgot the equation 1 + 1 = 2 could not be working at this time .
know longer doesn’t meant anything i guess , what important is , who you are attach with . and maybe , who shows more .

=)

Don’t really know but yet i think i know why , i keep ku xiao today . or perhaps , leng xiao . just what happen . understanding but not quite , this s fucky .
Just as i quote ,
I wish i can read your mind , but i scared the truth might hurt me .
but rather than staying here ban tian diao , i rather to take the step .
i wished i’ve got to choose the traits like the Sim does .

aiks !
da yi ma , can u come faster ?

all of the sudden , i rmb someone once asks me , whos the one i dote on the most , i said you . same question goes to you , same answer comes back to me .
it does bring back memories =)




i want…..to sleep !

interview

alright , i effing nervous for no reason .

not exactly cz of the interview , i think probably the things imma face after it .

yes , my ladyboss !

it should be nth to worry about .

yes yes , nothing !

if i really wanna worry , i should be worrying the fund of buying new clothsssssss . HAHA .

aiks .

im guess im totally 语无伦次 now =s .

been keep murmur in my heart since morning , thats why im here right now .

alright im random .

interview interview !

hope EVERY SINGLE LITTLE THING goes smoooooooooooth .

WISH ME LUCKS

HEY YOU ! I SAY

W I S H M E L U C K S !!

p/s : imma curse u if you dont !

love me .

hey love =) learn this . HAHA

1、如果你的女朋友在你面前哭了，无论什么原因，请抱紧她，再反抗也要抱紧，趴在桌子上永远没有在你怀里安心；



2、如果你的女朋友指出了你的不是，请不要总是嫌她唠叨，若不是因为在乎她不会说你；



3、如果你的女朋友和你赌气不理你，不要也学她，这正是考验你们的时候，“脸皮厚”的精神此时不发扬又更待何时；



4、如果你的女朋友不听你的话，转身走了，一定要追上她，若真的还爱着，丢下她一个人你又如何放心呢；



5、如果你的女朋友说“你走吧，我不想理你了”，千万不要相信，女人最是口是心非，其实那是她最需要你的时候；



6、如果你的女朋友生气了，说心情不好不想吃饭，千万不要问她想干吗想吃什么，她一定说什么都不要，买好你记忆里她最爱吃的东西（最好是有包装的，这样等她心情好了再吃也不会冷），但一定不要以自己也不吃来威胁她；



7、如果你的女朋友对你们说狠话，请保持三秒钟不说话，然后搂过她的肩，笑笑说：“老婆，你讲话的声音真可爱！” 珍惜你们的女朋友，不要把她们想的坏想的复杂，女人要的永远最简单！



有时候，妥协不是一种认输，是一种洋溢理解的姿态；原谅不是一种懦弱，是一种写满珍惜的胸怀...

wtheck

well well

i hope there is love everywhere .

have been given a opportunity

i dont feel like say NO to it

but the YES makes me hesitate .

heard , the people aint very nice there .

and yea , leaving here makes me worried .

im not trying to be reeeally responsible butt .. i do a little .

everyone s saying , guan ta si !

yes , imma follow .

and yea , take the chance .

just give it a try wont die eh ?

god , just what im talking about .

HEN LUAN AHHHHH !

life's suck

something's lost .

i cant actually what is it yet i can tell there were differences .

shouldn't be asking for too much attention because i knew its gonna spoil me , it brings nothing good for you .
Technically , i never done anything good jua . =s

it was like , after i came in i only saw miserable in your life .
we were told to move on and i always thought we did it pretty well too .
but from what i know =s totally speechless

Although i didn really wish it happens this way , but yeaa ..

i think this s all i can do in the current situation .

aiks . im just way fucky moody today .

tata .


oOo

niinii chan ~

LOLS

cute right .

whenever i view this pic it sure comes with a big big smile on my face .

its just too adorable

^^

've a nice day peeps .

*winks*

my oh my .

TO – DO – LIST

Clean my room , sparkling clean that kind . meaning i’ve to deal with the dust . FML

Practice piano urm i mean keyboard , for at least… an hour ?

A new blogger template !

Songs and Pictures , arrange properly . stop New Folder 1 2 3 4 ing ~ ==

Clean the lappy .

Clean the aircon thingthing , dust again !

My table , such a mess !

Cloths , everywhere =s

Nail polish =D

Be happy =)

anything ~ just stop sticking on the bed and just play games . no life man !




xxx




it seems like it has been awhile i didn touch dota , kinda miss the days when i playing it like there s no tomorrow .
play CS recently at SNB . i don’t know what s nice about there but they say the computers are nicer . for me , its nice because the yummy BAN MIAN is just downstair HAHA , oops ` !
and seriously , im fuckily noob ! although it s fun to play with ‘em , funny die .
to compare , i really love Dota so much moree .

but too bad , my time just don’t match with others =)



xxx




alright , im not in good mood .
i didn know why , i just don’t .
feel like sporting and sweat like no tomorrow .
it should be nothing that bothers me .
shouldn’t be .

sigh .

有一位朋友刚刚离开了
虽然我们已经很少联络了，也不算是超级好的朋友
但，刚收到消息时还是会有一点伤心..
毕竟前几天才刚遇到， 当晚还联络说找机会出来吃个饭
可是现在..

机会真的不是常常有的 , 偶尔还得被迫去面对现实
当现实不是你能所预料的 ` 掌握的 ` 可以怎么办 ?
很老套，但还是不免说一句
珍惜你现在所拥有的

不自觉地，我在想... 天堂...真的存在吗 ?
人死后到底会去哪里 ?
是不是会像戏里那样 , 其实一直还在我们身边只是我们看不到 ?

May You Rest In Peace =)





xxx





Mayb prejudiced control me , but i personally SERIOUSLY dislike her wall post to her friend .
Its too rude when u’re telling your fren LUCKILY its not him who dies
it can be more personal , but not on public .





xxx






Heart-aching is getting worse this week , it pains eveydayy , perhaps every morning or sometimes night ?
I don’t know why every morning but it does make me feel like im gonna die anytime too
who s gonna drops his/her tears for me ?

okay CHOI ! *touch wood*

: drink less coffee , ‘ve more rest everyday
this s what my heart tells me to do
BUT , i failed =D



hey you

xoxo . =)

..

I had a dream this morning , i dreamt that i’ve a day off today =D

In dream i woke up late so my mum asked me to call and say im sick apply mc blabla . i hesitated . she called at last and we went hiking . =s

And don’t know howwhenwhy , we were in a restaurant enjoying breakfast .
Nice holiday except that my phone kept ringing .

I reached my phone , and i woke up . GAHH it’s a dream . &%$@@!$#%^$@

Just when i swearing in my heart , my mum rushed in shouted at me : HEY ! u were late !! its already 9plus hai bu kuai kuai get up shower now and move ur ass .
Ohh craps .
Stun for few seconds .
I replied her i don’t wanna go to work , just call and said im sick , without any hesitation HAHA . she helps me to call and i way off to lalaland ~

but this time i were sleeping so-not peacefully something keep pusing pusing in my mind until my phone rang again .
I tried to ignore it but that’s actually very annoying tho .

Once agen , i reached my phone and i noticed the time - 7.10am !
FML , another dream !
==

TIAN AH ~ ! WEI SOMOK JIANG ZI DUI WO ! T T


xxx

in office ...
Heavy rain pours suddenly , it feels just great =)
Really love the noises it brings .

Raindrops keep falling on my head ~ they keep falling ~

elapsed

and every step we took we’ve grown
look how fast the time has flown

nice lyric isnt it =)

from Charice - Pyramid

just when i stucked my head in , this lyrics remind me

i shoudnt

altho i still care a little , i still mind a little , i still wish it could be better a little

a little sad , a little hope

its all gonna have to be thrown away .

we cant changed anything that had happened .

work for a better future is the best solution isnt it ?

at least , try =)

have to say , at least day by day , i saw the maturity grows inside me

shame on you

goes on

so , it’s the very end of the month again =)
take a deep breathe , take a new step .
Life’s goes on .

I always wished that September wouldn’t comes this fast .
I somehow wished life can be so hmm u name it .
free ? and somewhat spontaneous ?
anything
its just so lively as we can smell the youth
eventho we r not moving on , time does .
Its really time to put down what we used to be and be responsible for the future ,
soooon
Life’s goes on .

too , never believe when forever is said .
Even for a moment , the pain it brings still hurts when it breaks .
i understand the term letting go and giving up .
that’s not what matters .
what matter is , once again ,
it proves me , forever never exist .
nonetheless,
Life’s goes on .

=)



suddenly , this song pop up from memories .
cheers up !
^^

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreamin' of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Da da da'd da da
Da da da'd da da
Da da da'd da da da da

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get on board a fast train
Travel on a jetplane, far away
And breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won't forget all the ones that I love
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me
But, gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye, gotta
Take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Breakaway
Breakaway...

Kelly Clarkson – Breakaway

afterall .

feel like talking much todayy . don’t really know why , maybe its holiday ?
anyways , sharing is caring =) so , just listen =)

i think my pms started too soon this month , but im really stress of everything , or nearly everything .

‘ve been a big spender recently and im seriously worried that imma ‘ve not enough fund for the KL trip . maybe , just enough . but u know ~ comparing to Bruneii , KL is much like a shopping HEAVEN . without enough $$ , meaning no shopping . it’s a super sad thing .
At this time , im thinking . why am i not rich family kids ?

Days in office suck to the core . im bored and doing nothing most of the time . my phone was always in my hand . chatting , fb , twitter , blogreading and blablashitt . i always fished in the early morning , and i guess my boss already knew about it . i couldn’t pay enough attention on the work assigned to me , yes i finished it in time just ~ u know , delay delay delay until the last minute . when i get bored , i always slacking around fb like almost every 10mins although i ‘ve told myself a billion times there s nth to see .

Open web – bookmark – facebook – view home page – nth – exit . after *5-10mins* repeat again . =s

Say , if im the boss , i’d have probably sack ‘ this ‘ worker no matter how high efficiency she was . sometimes u really get upset much when u tried to impressed your boss by doing works nice and fast but they never appreciated it .

I’ve got a job opportunity , i guess . a better salary which is better for my future if i really wanted to study . but , i don’t think i can simply just give 1month notice and leave like that . im not saying im kind but think of it . if i leave here , how are they going to get compatible with their works ? im doing like nearly 90% of the works , how m i gonna pass the job to someone else in a month ? it sounds like a little irresponsible but the whole world is telling me : who cares ? neither you care if none is appreciating .

Who doesn’t get fed up when u work for almost 3years with no increment ?

AND , i really she bu de the to quit the job here . too relaxing and the 3.30 ! its like , a loadssssssssss moreee than others =s i’ve got moreeee time to slack ~ sleep ~ daydreaming ~ and EXERCISES ! aiya , sometimes i just think maybe i should just stop complaining and just stay ! live my life enjoy and relax with no challenge . wait for a rich guy drops from the sky marry him and be a Shao Nai Nai . dreaming much ? lols .

Think of my family future makes me stress , my mum’s just a typical housewife who has not working since the age of 20+ . IF , im not going to study , how am i gonna support my family future ? when my dad retires ? to buy a house for them ? to let them enjoy and take good care of them ? like how ? they always adore my bro much but he s just such a ermm , u know ~ spoilt , not clever type , immature , a form 4 student who doesn’t even wash his own plate and iron his own uniform . 茶来伸手，饭来张口..
aiks .

what moree if i go for a course . what course shud i take ? CAT ‘d be the best choice bcz……hmm girls = accountant ? seriously i don’t think im interested in accounts and too i don’t know whether if im capable to study account . i’ve failed it 5years straight in highschool =s i didn study for it yea , so ? i cannot guarantee also whether IF i can pass even IF i study for it ?
lols .
thinking of going KL , since its much cheaper there . but , living costs and expenses ? and , the life there + my personality ? lols , i’ve already got a picture of me shaking my ass off saying Eyyy Ohhh ~ !
ahems .
back to topic .
i told my mum about my plan few days ago . roughly about im going blabla , if cheap blabla , den i might need them support me a little blabla . and tadaaaa , she continued with her eyes on tv without any expression nor a single word just like she never knows im talking to her .
great ~ !
so what now ?

Many has asked me to study what im interested with if i really going to . but , as a Gemini , can say apa apa i pun ada hengchu LOLS . to choose one , interior design maybe ?

I like art , but i don’t think im creative enough . design is not like account or computing or business or whatever . those for me are like , even u’re not talented , just put more effort and study study study like no theres no tmr . as long as u put more hard work on it.

But design ? i don’t really know how it goes but what if one day they asking for creative and inspire doesn’t come to you ? and , brunei don have this special course for interior design ? ada ~ technical school speaking that only Yellow and Red IC has the chance to be chosen .

Life’s been really stress as we peeps grow up each day . responsibility comes to you no matter what . although me myself , i , always complaint that my parents don’t pay enough attention on me or don’t care me like they did to my sister and brother .

Still , seeing my dad comes home late with the tiring face makes me grief , thinking he wouldn have to so xin ku if im capable enough . My mum married to my dad when she was still at my age . she had actually wasted her youth to take care of we siblings . and yet we ‘re not still not able to full sponsor her even on a simple vacation ?

If only Neverland does exist .

Lols . suddenly feel whats with the emotional .
PMS , u just fucked me up .
Anyways , hope everything goes smooth .

Be strong peeps =)
xoxo .

hey baby , im here =)

Hi ! the title was totally a random so just ignore it HAHA .
After daydreaming and lepak around FB , Twitter and whatever blabla stuff the whole morning .
I seriously think i should stop this act .
=(
Like , spend more time on blogging jot down every single thought which i’d like to kept in mind , but NOT only when emo . i think my readers get emo too sometimes . DU BU QI ho ~
Naonianimama ~ keep emo kamjoi !Okay fine that’s a little rude , aiya ~ sui bian =D

So hmmmmmm .
The end .

HAHA WTF ! kidding ~

So ~
Having great days recently .
It has been awhile i didn have breakfast with them ^^ maybe lunch , maybe brunch , just so not breakfast .
Lallala ~ breakfast on Sunday morning just so lively ~
It’d be perfect if the foods were dimsumsssss which i’ve been craving for =D awww ~ *drooling*

Well ~ went badminton yesyesterday with Lai’s , KoKo’s and Kelv’s . LKK ?
Guess what ! i bought a new racket =D =D =D
Cost me $50 after discount but Koko helps me pay half of it .
Alright , its SI BEH malu but im broke atm .
So~ hou lian pi nia la ! =$

Next time ba next time , when i zuan da qian ! =D

went bball and badminton as well yesterday .
Sweat lots but useless , shudn be eating after sport BUT Sin U Me’s Ban Mian is just way too attractive , i couldn resist hoho ~
nyum nyum ~

muscle s aching much now . hand hang leg leg ~ tight dao can die .
SHUD cont to sport but .. tiring lar ~
climb stair also wan die wan die edii =s
noobiee noob ~

hey weight , why u keep increasing =(
Stop eating !!
Oh c’mon ! don’t lost ur inspiration ~
BIKINI !!!!!!!!!!


lala ~ uulala ~

Gemini

双子座
双子孤傲是因为他们自信，双子善变是因为世界在改变，双子没有耐性是因为他们发现了不值得，双子冷漠是因为他们害怕被伤害，双子花心是因为他们没有找到真爱，双子不在乎是因为你没有看到他们的敏感。

- 相信善变与没耐心是天生的。偶尔的冷漠，假装不在乎只是想保护自己。真爱，相信我找到了=）

笑
双子们的笑永远都是最单纯的，无论什么时候你都会看到一直都在笑的双子，因为他们一直都只想把自己的快乐带给别人，却只把悲伤留给自己，你没有看到过双子的眼泪是因为他从来不会在被人面前哭，当你看到双子的眼泪的时候，那么说明你是真的把他们的真心夺走了，因为双子真的很需要一份值得的依靠，他会每时每刻的在乎你的一切，他们很敏感的，会跟着你的快乐而快乐，跟着你的忧愁而忧愁，跟着你的改变而改变，但在你面前他们从来都是快乐的。

- 可能曾经吧？现在会较想与人分享悲伤。或许，真的想要知道到底还有谁，会把耳朵与肩膀借给我，关心我。当得不到想要的结果，除了假装快乐，还能够做什么？

爱
一提到双子的爱，一般人肯定都会说： 双子座的人最花心。可是是真的是这样吗？双子和异性的关系好只是因为他们非同一般的亲和力，而双子的真心只有一个，当他找到的时候，他就会付出自己的一切让对方得到幸福，他要的不是他自己能和对方在一起，他要的是对方的幸福，和双子在一起会感到很随和，因为他会包容你的一切，你的一切优点和缺点，和双子在一起绝对不会觉得被锁住，你只要做自己就好，因为双子喜欢的就是真实的你，做作的人根本不会得到双子的心。

-曾经，我的控制欲太强。可能到现在还是。但，相信我 =) 有人说，让你自然的爱我，不要用我的方式逼你爱我。这样对大家都好，我们都会很幸福 ^^


坚强
有人说双子很坚强，什么都不在乎，是阿，表面的双子确实很坚强，但是内心他们比任何人都脆弱，也许这也是风向 > > 星座的人的一个特性，决不会让别人看到自己脆弱的一面，因为他们都是一个有一双别人看不见翅膀的天使，天生就会给别人带来快乐，双子们的眼泪是透明的，别人看不见，可是自己却能看
得很清楚这样的透明的泪给自己开来双倍的痛。

-或许偶尔我会常说管他的，其实也并不然。有时也只是不想让人知道自己很在乎，因为我相信有些人越知道你在乎他，他反而越看你没有。这种感觉并不好受 =( 强颜欢笑，是唯一的选择。说出来，并没有比较好。因为人总是会有百分百的理由替自己强辩，没有人会喜欢被指责。只能默默的假装看不见，听不到。


人际
双子们的人缘很好，因为他们懂得你什么时候需要什么样的帮助，而且双子们会根据不同的人有不同的交往方式，双子很容易相信别人，所以经常会被欺骗，可是在欺骗后他们仍然会轻轻的笑笑然后说：没关系的，他骗我肯定会有原因。双子从来不会知道后悔是什么，因为他们时时刻刻都在为别人想，总会设身处地，可是这样别人根本就不知道，就是因为他帮助别人太多了，所以在他需要帮助的时候却总是孤立无援，然后继续的笑着，笑着找到一个角落，留下那颗透明的泪。

-也还好吧？因为太善变，对什么都有一定的好奇心。东学点西学点，自然能容易找话题。人性是鸡婆的，太渴望别人的关心，就会在别人‘关心’你时不知不觉把心事说出来，以为付出真心就会得到相同的回报。但往往，得到的还是对方的左顾而言他。久而久之，也只能苦笑着把眼泪往肚里吞。想着只少，他/她还会对着你笑 =)


朋友
当双子的朋友真的很幸福哦！因为当你遇到什么困难时，他会比你更着急，甚至会失去自己宝贵的东西也会帮助你，他会带给你快乐帮你分担忧愁，可是你却看不到他的孤独和无助，当双子看到你不高兴的时候，无论这时他有多么的郁闷，他也会立刻露出最真实的笑容来帮助你。

-因为他们无条件的对你们好，真的只是想要得到同等的对待。就算失败再失败，他还是会站起来，告诉你：我还在不用怕。他们想要的，无非只是一颗真心，一个真的会挺他，真心对他好的朋友。不是他们不要分享悲伤，只是怕这份悲伤会让人误会，把距离越拉越远。

执着
说双子善变，那只是片面之词，对于双子真正喜欢的东西，它是会执着的让人害怕的，就是因为内心太像小孩子太单纯，所以对于他们真正喜欢的东西，他们是根本就不知道放弃是什么的，除非是他们自己发现这个东西不值得，否则他们是绝对不会放弃的，只要是他们肯定的，他们就会有超出别人很多的坚持和执著。

-东西，应该还好。我身边的朋友，认识了很多年的你们，才是我最大的执著 =)


自尊
双子的自尊很重要，对于他们最重要的恐怕就是这个了，他们懂得原谅，无数次的去试着原谅，就算别人让自己千疮百孔，他们也会无条件的有自己的宽容，有自己的原则和原谅，就是因为他们的自尊，他们的自尊心让他们相信这个世界永远都是最美的，因为他们的自尊不允许自己放弃这个世界。

-因为我放弃，我就输了。曾经我放弃过，感觉~　不是很好！反而认真的去争取，努力，还比较好过。应该不会废到说结果不重要，不重要，就不会努力吧?


分享
在双子的世界里没有分享，只有是你的或者是我的，他们不会把一样东西去和别人分享，因为他们认为这样对那样东西是不公平的，因为他在乎每一个人每一样东西的感觉，只要他认为这件东西是自己可以割舍的，他绝对会无条件的退出，去成全别人，对于欺骗过他们的恋人，他会选择原谅，但绝对不会再和他们在一起，因为他懂得这样不值得。

- ...

双子座的人真的很可爱，真的很需要人的保护和安慰，他们不会放弃世界，却会放弃自己，去成全别人，他们懂得原谅和理解，无论这一秒他有多讨厌一个人，下一秒看到那个人脆弱的一面，他还是会去无条件地帮助他，真的很傻吧？但是傻的好可爱，好让人心疼，痛过以后，他们依然会笑着面对以后未知的路，继续原谅，继续理解，继续快乐，继续的傻着，改变双子真的很难吧？因为他们的心都是金刚石作的，但不是说他们无情，他们的执着只是针对自己的，那么孤傲的一个人，也只是针对自己，因为他们不知道怎么表达自己的内心，所以他们选择了沉默。

-就算我在这时大骂特骂，下一秒如果你跑来关心我，应该就算了吧？反而有时还会觉得自己想太多，虽然我真的是！适当的沉默是必须的，沉默不代表我可以继续的悲观下去。看开点，人也会开心点 ^^

加油吧！

Dynamite

I came to dance, dance, dance, dance
I hit the floor
'Cause that's my, plans, plans, plans, plans
I'm wearing all my favorite
Brands, brands, brands, brands
Give me space for both my hands, hands, hands, hands
Ye, ye
Cause it goes on and on and on
And it goes on and on and on

Yeah!

I throw my hands up in the air sometimes
Saying AYO!
Gotta let go!
I wanna celebrate and live my life
Saying AYO!
Baby, let's go!

'Cause we gon' rock this club
We gon' go all night
We gon' light it up
Like it's dynamite!
'Cause I told you once
Now I told you twice
We gon' light it up
Like it's dynamite!

I came to move, move, move, move
Get out the way me and my crew, crew, crew, crew
I'm in the club so I'm gonna do, do, do, do
Just what the fuck, came here to do, do, do, do

Ye, ye

Cause it goes on and on and on
And it goes on and on and on

Yeah!

I throw my hands up in the air sometimes
Saying AYO!
Gotta let go!
I wanna celebrate and live my life
Saying AYO!
Baby, let's go!

'Cause we gon' rock this club
We gon' go all night
We gon' light it up
Like it's dynamite!
'Cause I told you once
Now I told you twice
We gon' light it up
Like it's dynamite!

I'm gonna take it all like,
I'm gonna be the last one standing,
I'm alone and all I
I'm gonna be the last one landing
'Cause I, I, I Believe it
And I, I, I
I just want it all, I just want it all
I'm gonna put my hands in the air
Hands in the air
Put your hands in the air

I throw my hands up in the air sometimes
Saying AYO!
Gotta let go!
I wanna celebrate and live my life
Saying AYO!
Baby, let's go!

'Cause we gon' rock this club
We gon' go all night
We gon' light it up
Like it's dynamite!
'Cause I told you once
Now I told you twice
We gon' light it up
Like it's dynamite!

Taio Cruz - Dynamite

* madly in love !

dayss .

Lady boss was away for few days .
ITS SUPER AWESOME !

im so so so freeeeee yet busyy !

've been busy every morning sampai at least 10am ! or even 11ish ~ which is so so great for me .
i love the feeling being busy , after lunch(nap) break then start msn - ing while doing some paperworks .
stress freee !

idk , everything was just so relax without her around . no , shes a very nice boss ! just that , i;ve got more things to do that fill up my morning and i wont always do 'fishing' in the early morning .
maybe , i really should make a proposal .

dear lady boss ,
i advice you stay home and be a goodhousewife and i will take over your works . don worry , i can do it better than you did . if you dont mind , salary + 99 i also dont mind one la HOHO ~

okay fine , im just dreaming .
she will be back , NEXT MONDAY .
thats fast . saddest !

need and want .

i want chocolate , i need food .

i remembered our first commerce class was about needs and wants .

A need is something u must have , something that must not to do without .

A want is something u would like to have , its not a must , its more like a fullfilling of wishes .

okays above are simple craps .

so..

am i your need , or want ?

sometimes i feel you dont need me , you just want me =)

favicon

tuuu ~ i've changed my favicon finally .
its nearly a year since i said i wanted to change it , since my laptop went heaven .
so my laptop had actually died for a year edii =s how sadd .

anyways .
just in case u wanna change , coz i seriously think it looks cute !

just simply google it
how to change the favicon in blogger
follow the steps , its really super easyy .

but then, mine doesnt work on IE but firefox.
weirdd .

itsokay .
so now , i wanna create one myself =D=D=D
and look for new template . i siens this one edii aiks !

tataa ~ =3=

you

after a night wallowed in sadness .

i realize that , what i mind the most
its not knowing you aint gonna bring me when u could .
its not what whatever in your mind .

it is that , knowing when u know im down , im sad , i needed you by my side .
but u chose to ignore it . =)
u said u care , u said u worried .
but there s nothing but only saying .

the one who text me wasnt you neither you the one who tried to text and comfort me

after having a big rain washed .
its clear than ever . love doesnt exist as much as you and i thought
u know , but u chose to ignore . how sad was that .
i mind , i truly mind about this . i do =)
fucktards

lols ?

i know they wouldn't be here , i know im nothing to have those .
i shouldnt be expecting
but whats with the little hope that fills inside me convincing me maybe im something .
hoping for surprises and once again nothing but disappointment .

feel a little fucked up when im doing shitty things while i nearly can hear ur laughter approaching me from nowhere.

hahaha .
this s stupid .

lols ? yes , i cant .

Family

Finally , i went out with my family on my so called family day .
Its been quite awhile i didn join them on Sunday =s
I spent my time mostly on sleeping , HAHA .
or breakfast and blabla , with frens

aiks .

hmmm . so ~ the family dinner last Friday was ummmm . speechless .
i don’t know , its hmmm , weird weird de .
specially my uncle (xiao jiu) and his ‘wife’ .
we invited them , they come for sure .
u know ~ free food ==
hey no , im not . this s what his ‘wife’ said , we’re colleague .
有人请有的好吃做么不去 < ~ lols ?

okays , they came and eat . just eat ==
like couple of Stranger A and B have no seats and simply share table with us .
lols ?

i rmb we used to have lots laughter with the uncle , he used to sayang us like no tmr , we used to bully him like no tmr . oops .
aiyaa
just hmm , he has changed , since she came in .
slap me , i ever doubted why she chose my uncle . =s they having age’s gap .

ahhh . anything . and i know , i wont call her my XiaoJiuMu . =)


and .


Happy Union Restaurants aka Hai Wai Tian , SUCKS .

emo comes and goes .

its been a day . im in a good mood agen . yess im weird i know .

Say , i really wanna have good relation with the ‘ Ex ’ . u know ~ as in 分手后还是朋友 that kind . but , gahhh . hard .

I don’t really understand what he wants . I think , he trying to let me know he cant sleep well because of me .? Msg me in de middle of the night ask me to have a talk with him bcz his emo effed up ; msg me randomly tell heyy i ‘ve not been sleeping these 2days , im siao edii ; 7 early 8 early in the morning msg me Hi , i didn sleep last night , im gonna die later .

well ~ emmm ~ lols ?

if not . 7 early 8 early . msg me Hi . … Yes Hi . full stop . that’s all . i wonder what he expect for my reply . Hi back . Hello . Hey . ?
apakaN ? speechless .

u don wan sleep , that’s ur problem . its your own choice .
U don wan sleep , but u kept bising everyday , i don have enough sleep T T , i wan my bed , i need to sleep . that’s annoying .

What effed up most s . stop waking me up in de middle of the night NOR early morning !

U don’t want to effing sleep s your own effing problems stop effing wake me up to read those effing meaningless msg endure you effing emo .

You wanna msg me s your own choice , i cant reject , but please . use ur brain , choose a right time !

Gahhh ! just EFF u !



ahems . cool down .

so . was going to excaped today , suppose . but cancelled , postponed to tomorrow .
this s a little sad . because the sushi s running running marry go round in my head de whole morning HAHA .

its okays ~ i’ll go for my family dinner then .
uncle strikes 1st agen , so yes , a treat =D
hmm ~ what a luck he has , it’s the 2nd time edii nehs .
Oh yes , i think i forgot to mention .
He strikes 1st prize too in June and he bought a mobile for me as my bday present =D
I think i shud start buying 4D too , HAHA .

Hmmm . stucked . =D

Tataa ~

aiks

im emo ing for hmm . u tell me .

i dont know what s this feeling .
i dont know wher it came from .
i feel , lost . and empty .

i suddenly realize why edii .
im selfish . always and still .
its not like i baru know im selfish , cos everyone s selfish .
everyone loves to being loved .
but , how do you love someone when he/she doesnt love you ?

there s once love within , yes i know .
it had changed .
i watched Kang Xi Lai Le that regarding to Show and Rainie story .
i wonder , s there any misunderstand between us ?
i kinda mind those love more love less things .
i dont really know why it became this way .

she said , they knew , and they edii cope with the love more love less things .
they are the BFF , they did it so the love last long .
now i can understand a little .
love more, ask for less.
i 'll try .
im guess im too young back then . way too naive .
apparently , i dont want this to happen too .
im sorry .

how many years we wasted .
somehow i wished a sorry too , it may soothes =)


i just wanna love you all moreee .
i know i 'll bitch at times , i know i sure gonna make u feel like slap me till i die at times .
i'll try to not to , it gonna hurt tho .

give me time .
u ever heard ppl says :
狗改不了吃屎
江山易改本性难移 ?

thats it .
it always feel better after speak ^^

lovess .
xoxo

Picnic =D

Lols, the title sounds old school .

We went beach yesterday =) . it’s the 1st time we went on our own , yeaa . its abit very cacated on planning .
we don’t know what to bring , we don’t know what’s our food . we don’t know what time we should go either . blabla and blabla ~

Best of the plan , go Huaho , pusing pusing n yess , here we got our food =D
Bread , mayonnaise . tuna . egg <~ sandwich
Cabbage , tuna , dressing < ~ saladNugget , Hotdog , Keropok and Drinks .

Simple and easy ! hoho ~

7 early 8 early as in like 5am went lai’s house to ready the food . reached the beach around 9 plus plus ~
Seeeeeeee , i told ya ~ so late confirm no hao wei zi =(
sadly , no empty pondok edii , so we just simply settle under shade .
bought a volleyball ^^ ermm a 3 in 1(rugby , volleyball , football ) multipurpose volleyball which only cost $20 !

so so and so so ~ nice calm sea + cloudy =) , beli beli nice to play with the sea . but still it getting hot after noon time and young ppl were just to lin c to hide till everyone got sunburn . ouchiiie =’ . and too , the tmd-ly sandflies == , follow everywhere sampai we cant manage to play de ‘deadbody’ thingthing =ss , and my leg == gahhh , don’t mention !

no picture s taken .
my mobile run out of energy the night before peacefully sleeping the whole day .
and , we were just too busy have fun – ing . =p
too , im lazy to think and use a better word to express the story .
its too bad . =3

nxt time ‘ll do . =)

cares . ^^

fuck , my leg reali itchy till can die .

tired till gou gou li

apparently . aku always do this kind of thing during working hours HAHA .

apa ? atu time ? draw wrong ba . =3

assumption

deeply in love ..

sooner or later ...

....

GG-ness ..

i wonder if true love does exist .
u love me . i love u .
and then get married .
and yeapp, shouldnt the couple start to discuss bout some really mean thingthing ?

examples : how many 0 u have in ur bank ? ada house o not ? whats ur ride ? HAHA !

so hmmm ..... what if he doesnt want to work for the future . zou yi bu suan yi bu , like this not good ba ? cannot take sui sui de wedding pics LOLS .

being a little realistic , i wished to marry a rich one ^^
spend like no tmr ! xD
dream dream also suang ! ==

well, just a topic . xb

taa ~

im bored .

wanted to post some meaningful / recently stuff but my mind was blank
i dont know how to start .
=s

i kept thinking dont lazy dont lazy just blog !
okays , i failed !
im starving at the moment but im lazy to cook .

thinking .
wher shud i slack tonight ?
HAHA

instead of doing anything else in office .
i accidentally draw the above picture while i was daydreaming
well, it looks nice !
HAHA
=$

okays
im just bored
==

pessimistic

being a little over negative.
i remember i ever thinking about to be a psychologist
i wanna know what ppl think
i hope i can read their mind so i 'd know what exactly i should do.

but then,
i cant understand myself pun
when i was calm, i told myself to think more positive.
we must have hope , believing s something we must do to obtain hope.
but when i getting alone and the emo thingthing fills up
there i go being pessimistic again
as in very !

there r a few times i think i do need visit a psychologist
its a bit kua zhang but seriously i think i need one .
mayb just someone who can guide me to the positive path
maybe frens ? a VERY optimistic friend to tahan my VERY negative tot.

i found that my lack of security really spoiled me lots.
i always ask for attention so that i'd know if there s someone who care for me
i asking far much for a care until its not very reasonable
no care = no love
what i used to thought
fore i believe, if someone loves u much, they are willing to do anything just to make u smile
its a official statement in the love cycle
but still, he claim that im too over.

tsk

i always act like a hedgehog(googled) to attack ppl 1st to prevent them from hurting me
i care my own feeling but i forgot to think of their feeling too
judge them using my unique point of view which make things not so right
somemore i hoping them would stand of my side trying to understand how lack of security i am
i do stand of their side to think for them for 'awhile', i know how it hurts when i was attacking
but still, it seems like i just wan myself to be the 1st priority of dem
i wan myself to be protected well from being hurt
selfish me

i need love i need care
im asking for more when i have both of them
meanwhile this act is just pushing both these love and care far away from me
when they are away, there goes my emo again
i hate this but i cant control

cool headed now allowed me to speak all this .
allowed me to see what i need to see
allowed me to understand im so wrong to behave this way
i know i 'll try to change for peoples that i love
for people that i wanted to have their love back
its not going to be success immediately, need time tho
bear with me a little
coz my stupidbestfren named Emo sure gonna find me when im down down down
when that moment
tears are going to fall like no tmr
really sad dao can die


so

what can i do ?

suggestion ?

sorry,
for whom i reali hurt you lots.
sincerely

=3

Okayy. im lazy to edit the post. xD
Just a few pictures, part of the reason 'my-phone-camera-sucks-to-the-core' !

Necklace papa bought for me ^^
(p/s: Its definitely not a diamond on it)

From Lai's

When it merges, it shows happy dayy =3

Next page printed Bday =3

alright i thought its a butterfly at 1st HAHA.
=$

From Haur's

Cute =3

^^

conclusion : their handwritting sucks ! HAHA (A)
but still, treasure lots =3

Please remember

Time, sometimes the time just slips away
And your left with yesterday
Left with the memories
I, I'll always think of you and smile
And be happy for the time
I had you with me
Though we go our separate ways
I won't forget so don't forget
the memories we've made

Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
and you were there for me
Please remember, our time together
The time was yours and mine
And we were wild and free
Please remember, please remember me

Goodbye, there's just no sadder word to say
And it's sad to walk away
with just the memories
Who's to know what might have been
We'll leave behind a life and time
We'll never know again

Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
and you were there for me
And remember, Please remember me

Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
And you were there for me
Please remember, our time together
The time was yours and mine
And we were wild and free
Then remember, please remember me

And how we laughed and how we smiled
And how this world was yours and mine
and how no dream was out of reach
I stood by you, you stood by me
We took each day and made it shine
We wrote our names across the sky
We ran so fast, we ran so free
I had you and you had me

Please remember, please remember


LeAnn Rimes - Please Remember

Bday =3

What the smile .

Say, they really had become more mature.
I can still catch some pictures of last year ^^
lols. It’s a bit stupid to recall but yeaa. =3

Surprisingly, they prepared a cake for me when the clock strikes 12 ^^
Alright, although its just a cake follow with some greetings and singing thingthings.
Still, sweeeeeeet to the max ~ =3
Somemore i’ve got bday cards ! =33
Awwwwww ~ cute cham them lols. =333
lovessss til can die.

Okays i cant stop this idiotic smile HAHA.
What more to expect ? =3

And too, my cute papa bought me a necklace with a key pendant.
I asked him, is that means i cant hang out till late late edii since he bought a key, a permission ?
He went speechless and am chio there lols.
Papa always msg me on my bday, i didn expect it comes with a present this year.
^^ a key ~ alright the key wasn’t that pretty as expected but it reaaaaally reaaaaaally very meaningful to me. I love papa !

uploading image...

What else.
Yes ! werwerrs !
I’ve been complaining non-stop that i haven’t got any flower this year.
Finally, on my bday. Someone (EX) sent a big bunch of roses to my office.
It’s a bit a lots awkward. ^^”
12 red roses.
He said, rose mean i love you
12 roses mean be mine.
^^”
Okays i admit i love to see those flowers but hmmmm mama said, i shouldn accept.
And nag me for like 10mins while holding the flowers with smilee (like its for her smilee)~
Women’s weird. =3

Anything. asa i’ve got pretty pretty flowersss. ^^

say, i really feel super sweet when i see my inbox and my facebook wall flood with greetings =3, thankiu thankiu ♥

It’s a wonderful 21st.

thanks everyone =3
♥

~love's pei

Lady Antebellum - Need You Now

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin' for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

woah woaaah.

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all

It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now

And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now

I just need you now (wait)

Ooo, baby, I need you now ♪♪


Lady Antebellum - Need You Now

Party ? No Party ?

We like party . we like , we like party .

Kasianly. No party.
Our hmmm gathering was cancelled.
Lai’s went Temburong and yeaaa, so we didn’t celebrate Koko’s and Danny’s bday.
awww ~
im craving for a party much =(

He left his laptop with me while he was away to Temburong, i thought i ‘ll be dota-ing like no tmr but surprisingly i didn’t. im goodie goodie ^^
but still late sleep la lols.


we went for Shrek 3 yesterday.

So shes beautiful as an orge ? hmmm. oO

Laugh die me xD
It’s a above average cartoon for me :D
Although the 2 IceMountain ( Danny’s + KoKo’s ) sitting beside me were really cool with the poker face but that’s alright , im still laughing like no tmr . ! thumbs up ^^

angry wig ! pkm him, funny die.

So whats next ~ Prince of Persia ! i wanna watch ~~ =DD
But hmmm ~ i tot we shud be saving money ?



xxx



In a blink of an eyes (kua zhang), im turning 21 soon.
21 sounds meaningful to me for don’t know what reason.
I wan partehhh xD !!!
I like to move it move it ~ we like to move it move it ~

Donkey ~ can i borrow your tongue =(
*typical bigbig watery innocent eyes*

LOLS

im bored =(

n im sleepy.
Been sleeping really late again these days.
I stay on bed, i couldn’t fall asleep.
I was doing nothing. But my mind, refused to rest. saddd.
Think too much ?
No ~ i was only thinking “my god, my god, its getting late. I wanna sleep, lets sleep lets sleep……” ==
This s not thinking too much ey ?
aww ~ =((
i missed my laptop.
I missed my nightlife doing nothing enjoy the peace atmosphere whole night chatting, dota-ing, bo liao-ing.
I missed Dota T______________________T

I just cant bear to be alone.
I don’t really know why. I guess i know why but maybe that’s not the particular reason too.
Because sometimes i do enjoy alone ?
Gahh i don’t know.

I just, don’t like . =s

Couple of days before, i’ve a fight with you.know.who because im way too boring.
The boredom brings impatient or im always being impatient either.
I know, i sound rude. I stabbed him by words.
Alright i guess i just want him to pay more attention on me or soothe me or some blabla shitt. I wanted to feel like being care. so yeaaa. wrong way , try not to !

After a few hours later, we talked erm as in msn again. i tried to be patient. I tried to listen.
I did it pretty well =D *pat myself*
Although im not agreed with some of it, but yeaa if in other ppl eyes this s what they see the way you are. You were it.
You cannot blame ppl from misunderstanding you. Plus, they are closed to you.
So, even they think you this way. Its really time to look into the mirror ^^

Im sorry everyone !!!!!!!!!! sometimes i just don’t mean it for what’ve i said.
If, it does hurt. DUUUII BUUUUUU QIIIIII T____________________________T

Oh my, im reaaly bored no =s

Blahhhhhhhh ~

Spend a night at Lai’s house last Saturday ^^

Say, Lai’s koko has quite a few musical instruments.
Piano, violin, and 3 to 4 electric guitars. =D
I think he plays well tho ~ for a beginner, for he never attend any class.
He actually learned all those things just via Youtube.
I remember 1 or 2 years ago i ever asked him to teach me to play the electric guitar =b
The song he taught me was the ‘I Don’t Love You’ by The Chemical Romance. The melody s simply nice.
But then sadly, i forgot how to play edii HAHA =s
It has been years alright =$

Im seriously thinking im a very good kid that willing to learn all source of things =D (beh paiseh)
While waiting for the others, my sharp eyes spotted the lonely piano need my companion and once again, i jio Koko to teach me piano =DD
Hmm ~ he can play few Final Fantasy rhythms, Kingdom Heart and Canon in few months time.
I chose the Canon ofcz, i didn’t really know why. Maybe feel more familiar with the melody since we always play that song when we were in high school. O2JAM ey ! lols it does bring some sweet memories =b

Somehow, i wished that i can buy a piano one day. ^^


Okays ahems, back to topic.

So ~ koko bought a board game few days ago, the Pictionary.
I’ve seen this board game before but i always thought it s for kids that i never know there s an adult version.
It was pretty fun xD
all you need to do s draw draw draw ~
better drawing skill s not a must but the tacit understanding s really important ~
plus the handicap ~ surely gonna laugh die you !

We played stacko as well ~ i believe it ‘d be more fun after drink.
Its weird ~ i didn kena jio drink ~ not even a sip =D
Anything ~ gonna continue this Saturday i guess.

And before that ~ i think i ‘l go buy the Twist ~ hehehehhee.
With better innate flexibility of girls’, i stand a bigger chance eyy ?


tataa ~


P/S: Pictures ~ i’ll try ^^”